Episodes
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Molotov Cocktail of Hate
Pamela Cobbas, Mercedes Roxana Figueroa, Andrea Amarante, Sofía Castro Riglos
Intimate Partner Violence
The Murder of Chen Chen Fei
The Murder of Quanesha Shantel
The Murder of William Nicholas Abraham
Disappearance
The Murder of Levi Davis?
Ex Abercrombie & Fitch CEO Michael Jeffries Charged: Human Trafficking and Assault
The Shocking Murder Of Eduardo Xol
Ex-Partners, a Mysterious Friend, and Two Bodies Found in Suitcases on Bristol's Clifton Bridge
Kasim Omar: Escaped to America Seeking Safety, Only to Face a Horrific Tragedy
The Murder of Paul Taylor
The Murder of Howard Bresendine
Mental Health Resources
SAMHSA’s National Helpline is a free, confidential, 24/7, 365-day-a-year treatment referral and information service (in English and Spanish) for individuals and families facing mental and/or substance use disorders.
https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline
LGBTQ & Gay-Friendly Rehabs: Statistics, Risk Factors & Treatment
(888) 402-1504
https://www.addicted.org/
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE INTIMATE PARTNER VIOLENCE
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
Thanks to MysticMag for the global resource guide. One of the first to be compiled.
https://www.mysticmag.com/psychic-reading/domestic-violence-resource-guide/
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In 1960, Smith College's Professor Newton Arvin and two of his colleagues were swept up in a scandal concocted in large part as a way of shaming being queer out of existence.
Efforts to control the flow of what is erotica or smut is an ongoing crusade in the United States and in many places in the world. When those crusades are weaponized against targeted groups of people they can be lethal.
Some of you listening to this episode might think a professor at a private college is a fairly privileged person, and you're not wrong, but his homosexuality stripped away much of that privilege.
The other reason I'm sharing this story is that Newton Arvin and his two colleagues are stand-ins for the hundreds, perhaps thousands of mostly gay men who were arrested, jailed, and had their lives ruined for the offense of being gay.
The potential loss of one's freedom and profession is both unbelievable from today's vantage point and entirely possible to imagine happening again.
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This collection of cases includes the murder of three trans women of color, the most at-risk group in the LGBTQ+ community. Two cases of intimate partner violence, please see this description for help.
The murder of a 19-year-old murder in prison because he was gay and black. A gay man was murdered in his home by a jealous boyfriend and the victim's friend, and two gay men were murdered by a group of friends led by a homophobic leader.
Intimate Partner Help:
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE INTIMATE PARTNER VIOLENCE National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org If you or someone you know is in danger, call 9-1-1 immediately.
Thanks to MysticMag for the global resource guide.
One of the first to be compiled. https://www.mysticmag.com/psychic-reading/domestic-violence-resource-guide/
Episode Description
Benjamin Renwick
Dylan Gurley
Micah Laureano
Leo Nunes
Tzatzi Sanchez
Savannah Williams
Starr Brown
Tommy Lee Trimble and John Lloyd Griffin
Vanity Williams
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Peter Coshan
Lisa Stone
Curtis Marsh
Gaurav Gopalan
Matthew Mickens-Murrey
Ukea Davis and Stephanie Thomas
Vanity Williams
Several of the cases in this episode involve unsolved cases. In the next episode, I will delve into the reasons why this might be the case.
Two of these cases involve the murder of black trans women, the highest rate of murder in the LGBTQ+ community.
The last two cases happened at the same time in the same city
To watch any of these stories you can find them on the Queer True Crime YouTube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
For Help
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
The International Domestic Violence Resource Guide (2024) is the largest resource worldwide.
https://www.cvpsd.org/post/domestic-violence-resources-in-the-north-america
If you suspect elder abuse, call 1-833-401-0832 and enter your 5-digit zip code to be connected to the Adult Protective Services in your county, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day.
Please subscribe to the channel.
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Anna Flores
Pauly Likens
Alex Rodda
Liara Tsai
Bruce Becker
Curtis Marsh
Kevin Clewer
Charles Gibson
Brad Nelson Winters
Here is a collection of murders some of them due to intimate partner violence and some hate crimes. The thing they have in common is the loss and heartache of family and friends.
While might surprise some that young men, mostly, still struggling with their sexual identity resort to murder when threatened, ongoing scholarship suggests that the causes might be complicated, a mixture of internalized homophobia and other pathologies that fuel murder.
Intimate partner violence in the queer community remains underreported. Please use the resources below if you or someone you know needs help.
Finally, the murder of Kevin Clewer remains unsolved though it seems authorities have a suspect. The murders of Clewer, Charles Gibson, and Brad Winters were thought to be part of a serial killer’s ramp-up thank goodness they were not.
Murders of queer people continue to be under-reported so I thank you for your loving attention to these cases.
To watch any of these stories you can find them on the Queer True Crime YouTube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
For Help
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
The International Domestic Violence Resource Guide (2024) is the largest resource worldwide.
https://www.cvpsd.org/post/domestic-violence-resources-in-the-north-america
If you suspect elder abuse, call 1-833-401-0832 and enter your 5-digit zip code to be connected to the Adult Protective Services in your county, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day.
Please subscribe to the channel.
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In 1998, Wollongong, New South Wales, Australia became the location of two of the most violent murders Australia has ever seen. In 1998, Wollongong, New South Wales, Australia became the location of two of the most violent murders Australia has ever seen. 19-year-old, Mark Valera's pent-up rage led him down the path of murder, leaving destruction in his wake and sparking an equal fury that ultimately led to the killing of his own father. The murders committed by Mark "Valera" van Krevel further revealed a disturbing wave of child molestation in New South Wales, implicating some of the community's most respected figures including one of Valera's victims. At the time, Australia, like many places worldwide, was experiencing a surge of violence against the LGBTQ+ community, involving the police on some occasions. Equally damaging is the capricious conflation of pedophiles, hebephiles, and homosexuals. Wollongong's former Mayor Frank Arkell, who was not gay, was shortly before his murder with 29 charges of child molestation. Valera's vigilantism removed the possibility of justice for the 29 victims and possible vindication of the alleged victims from a previous case. Valera's first victim, David O'Hearn, was a quiet man beloved by his family and friends. The extreme violence surrounding these events has unfortunately overshadowed O'Hearn's life and death. This retelling serves to honor his memory.
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Six stories of possible greed, intimate partner violence, murderous internalized homophobia, and your garden variety homophobia.
Toslimy Bang and Terence Brown
Blaze Bernstein
Kelly Moriarty and Doris “Pat” Carter
Michael Causer
John Paul Kelso
John Walter Lay
John Edwards
To watch any of these stories you can find them on the Queer True Crime YouTube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
Or click on any of the titles.
For Help
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
The International Domestic Violence Resource Guide (2024) is the largest resource worldwide.
https://www.cvpsd.org/post/domestic-violence-resources-in-the-north-america
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In this episode four stories of murder, homophobia, and mental health in crisis.
Isaac Herrera
Jordan Taylor
Terrance Brown
Reginald Folks
To watch any of these stories you can find them on the Queer True Crime YouTube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
For Help
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
The International Domestic Violence Resource Guide (2024) is the largest resource worldwide.
https://www.cvpsd.org/post/domestic-violence-resources-in-the-north-america
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Happy Pride and welcome to season four of Panic.
This is the second season of Panic and the fourth for the podcast as a whole.
In the second season, I want to continue to explore the themes of the podcast and YouTube channel, and how homophobia in all of its permutations plays itself out in the lives of queer folks and the people who love them. I'll continue to explore intimate partner violence while providing resources for help and healing.
I want to explore more stories of murdered trans people. I only learned when I started to cover some of these cases that many states across the United States have no formal process for addressing gender identity often referring to a murder victim by their dead name which is then disseminated to the media and family. How do those inequalities affect an investigation?
Thanks and hugs to those of you who continue to listen and those of you who are new.
Happy Pride.
Panic
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Gary Gleeson
Alex Rodda
Raymond Kindred
John McGrail
Leonard Riendeau
Charles Kimball
John Fuoroli
Brandi Mells, Shanta Myers, Jeremiah, and Shaniese Myers
To watch any of these stories you can find them on the Queer True Crime YouTube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
For Help
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
The International Domestic Violence Resource Guide (2024) is the largest resource worldwide.
https://www.cvpsd.org/post/domestic-violence-resources-in-the-north-america
If you suspect elder abuse, call 1-833-401-0832 and enter your 5-digit zip code to be connected to the Adult Protective Services in your county, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day.
Please subscribe to the channel.
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George Webber In this episode, A closeted man's search to fulfill his fetish leads him to hire a 16-year-old from a Craigslist ad.
Charlie Howard Two gay men are attacked by a group of teens ending in murder.
Carlos Collins A former police officer's inability to let go ends in murder.
James Sheehan Suffering from stage 4 cancer, an elderly man leans on a friend whose only interest is his money.
Darrin Thorpe His death has been called a drug overdose but his husband suspects it might be a murder.
Carzella Little A late-night argument between girlfriends ends in murder.
To watch any of these stories you can find them on the Queer True Crime YouTube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
For Help
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
The International Domestic Violence Resource Guide (2024) is the largest resource worldwide.
https://www.cvpsd.org/post/domestic-violence-resources-in-the-north-america
If you suspect elder abuse, call 1-833-401-0832 and when prompted enter your 5-digit zip code to be connected to the Adult Protective Services in your county, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day.
Please subscribe to the channel.
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On September 7, 1982, the Gainesville, Florida Labor Day Weekend was disrupted when University of Florida's Professor Howard Appledorf's neighbors spotted his condo had been broken into.
Inside police found a highly staged scene and the professor asphyxiated on his sofa, as the three young suspects fled they left behind a frenzy of fears about cults and witchcraft.
The tale that would unravel would be far sadder, exposing the life of a victim lived in the closet and three young perpetrators abandoned to the streets where they became both prey and predator.
If you'd like to watch this episode you can find it on the Panic YouTube Channel.
https://youtu.be/8GMO1WoZnyo
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Podcast Notes:
Akira Ross
Allan Lanteigne/Demitry Papasotiriou
Summit Kumar
Raymond Scotter
Shawndell McCloud
Dr. Louis Chen, Eric Cooper, and Cooper Chen
Warning this case involves the death of a child. Starts at 3:20.
To watch any of these episodes you can find them at:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
This episode has a case of homophobic murder by a stranger, the murderous obsession of a former lover, the corruption and greed of love gone wrong, a son killing a father to save the honor of the family, and more, a robbery and a murder, and a doctor and family annihilator.
For lots of historical and personal reasons intimate partner violence continues to be under-reported in the queer community but resources are available.
First are resources for the United States.
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE INTIMATE PARTNER VIOLENCE
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
The International Domestic Violence Resource Guide (2024) is the largest resource from around the world.
https://www.cvpsd.org/post/domestic-violence-resources-in-the-north-america
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Here are seven cases of stalking, and homophobia in the United States and Sweden, a case of a stepfather's homophobic rage, and an unresolved case of a body in a fish tank.
These shorts are taken from the Panic YouTube channel. If you’d like to see any of these shorts please join me at the Panic channel using the link below.
Brittany Cosby and Crystal Jackson
Brain Eggs
Josef ben Meddour
Marcus Volk
Lawrence Wong and Thomas Whitney
Zachary Kennedy
Steen Fenrich
To watch these episodes:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK4r13FF8ExLGbhfSH6i4hw
Please subscribe and like.
Thanks!
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Robert Bennett Jr. was a smart guy from a wealthy family he was also a violent sadist who liked to inflict pain on unwitting strangers.
Though this is not a murder case it illustrates what happens when you mix a homophobic cultural attitude filtered down to law enforcement mixes with the influence of a predator from a wealthy family who'd go to any length to protect their son.
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Note: I've only just realized that the audio for the previous upload of this episode was icky and is only a few minutes long. Here is the episode in its entirety.
I have also wanted to delve into the lives of Jeffrey Trail and David Madson and Andrew Cunanan's relationship with them both. In part, because as tragic as Gianni Versace's murder was, not to mention the murders of Lee Miglin and poor Andrew Reese who was just doing his job, Trail and Madson's murders seem particularly devasting.
Friends and lovers, secrets and lies.
People who knew them said Cunanan loved and admired Trail and Madson, and they at some stage loved him, yet he killed them both as some sort of retribution for his life falling apart.
I hope you'l listen and share this episode because these two men are worthy of your consideration. Having spent time reading about them I feel even more affection for them and for their loved ones who were lucky to have these extraordinary young men in their lives.
Here are a few links to the 48-hour interview with Jeffrey Trail and a link to some of the letters and pictures Cunanan wrote to Madson.
To watch this episode:https://youtu.be/zFhfVTudwQg
48 Hours Richard Schlesinger's connection with a Cunanan victimhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Elzxfa2cwdg
Pictures and Letters
https://www.tumblr.com/andrew-cunanan-true-crime-blog
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Peeble LaDime Doe
Wendy Thorpe
Gordon Church
Luke Davies and Jesse Baird
Ranjith Kankanamalage
Zach Kennedy
August Provost
Seven cases of intimate partner violence and hate crime murders.
The case of Peeble LaDime Doe, a transgender woman who was murdered by her former lover.
This is the first case in the nation to use federal protections to prosecute a hate crime based on gender identity even though South Carolina remains one of the two states with no hate crime protections for queer people.
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE INTIMATE PARTNER VIOLENCE
National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
Online live chat: thehotline.org
If you or someone you know is in danger call 9-1-1 immediately.
I you'd like to watch any of these episodes you can find them on the Panic: Queer True Crime YouTube Channel at: https://www.youtube.com/@panicqueertruecrime
Before you go subscribe here and while you're there subscribe there. Hugs!
Finally, Panic has been voted one of the best gay true crime podcasts to listen to by the folks at Feedspot. Thanks to you all for making it happen.
https://crime.feedspot.com/queer_true_crime_podcasts/
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This week a mixture of intimate partner violence, madness, and homophobia.
If you'd like to watch any of these stories join me at the Panic Queer True Crime Channel on YouTube.
Jake Marandino
Harley Walker
Annie Meyer
Brian Campbell
Jun Lin
Crystal Parker
Naasire Johnson
Filippo Gangitano
Sylvia Lugo
Howard Efland
If you or anyone you know is the victim of violence please use the link above.
In the U.S., call 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) for the National Domestic Violence Hotline.
You deserve to live a life free of violence of any kind.
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Eight stories of intimate partner abuse, theft, murder, and a historical case that has never been solved.
To watch any of these stories you can find them at:
https://www.youtube.com/@panicqueertruecrime
Gary Ruby
Ronald Shumway
Heather Diebert
Dr. Gary Jenkins
Timothy Smith
The Slasher
Brian Williamson
Casey Taylor
If you or anyone you know is the victim of violence please use the link above.
In the U.S., call 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) for the National Domestic Violence Hotline.
You deserve to live a life free of violence of any kind.
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The story of Jimmy Zappalorti's life and death is the story of the times in which he lived. The love of a family, and community, and the search for self-acceptance and a small amount of joy. Jimmy Zappalorti died twice.
Once while stationed in Danang, Vietnam, and some twenty years later on Staten Island where he grew up when two hate-filled young men decided to take his life.
It has been an honor to tell Jimmy's story and to get to know his story. I think you might have as much affection for him as I do. Please join me and share the story of the life and times of Jimmy Zappalorti.
To watch this story: https://youtu.be/nBHzEYjqoAY
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