Episodes
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John Allen is back to face what is.
What am I?
Suffering is not a glitch. It’s a call to pay attention to what you are having an argument with in reality.With what is. With God. And guess what? You will lose every fuckin' time if you go toe to toe with God. LOL Just saying
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John Allen makes a deal with "what is". Once again 'what is" pulls the football away.
Dare to be pretentious
Ash Wednesday.
6:10 Falling out with the therapist
6:30 Always willing to give it a shot.
8:00 Sin in original Aramaic means to miss the point.
10:00 Lots of cool shit is going on when you pay attention
12:45 I was going to talk about loving
13:30 It's so...That made me laugh. For real...good joke
15:25 Glory holes
15:45 I do crack myself up
16:00 Giving Irving a blast...
16:47 Gapped out.. What did I say? I am back now..oh exposure therapy...or denial...
19:50 I laughed at the mean dog joke. I did laugh listening to it again...
23:40 So two narcissists walk into a bar...
33 old guy sport joke...decided to leave it in..even though it makes me sound line an old guy...
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Missing episodes?
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John Allen loses yet again to what is. This time he doesn't even make it to the end of the round.
Shakespeare starts Hamlet AFTER the king is dead. That’s drama. The reaction.
1:50 Because I have nothing to lose I am free to talk but it’s shocking that most people don’t have that freedom.
2:30 Freedom of speech is in serious danger. Danger! Danger! Will Robinson
4:50 It’s not that they will lose their jobs for speaking; now it’s even standing next to someone who says something can get you fired.
9:37 Joe Biden Am I still alive?
11:00 Don’t take away my words.
12:00 A safe space in my day was being able to say what you wanted without consequence.
13:00 A push pull relationship with success
15:05 Mark iv panther tank pulls up in front of house.
16:05 I’ve grown up to be a weird troll.
17:50 Did I say the quiet thing?
18:00 I mean Joe is ahead 8 points not Donald.
18:30 I crack myself up.
20:00 Holding on by Chief Justice Robert’s fingernails and Justice Ginsburg’s pancreas
23:00 Monitor yourself.
26:00 What can I tell ya? LOL
34:00 It’s a metaphor ladies and gentlemen
33:30 I aint no Guru I only play one on TV
36:30 Ask yourself what the fuck is happening and then investigate
38:04 Take two minutes and just shut the fuck up.
40:00 These people have really let us down
41:45 How are you spinning this?
42:00 What I never tell in that story.
45:00 You have everything you need in this moment or you would be dead
46:00 The Dogs Bark and the Caravan moves on
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John Allen losing to what is...again.
I thought I was the guy making the joke; but it turned out, that I am actually the joke.
A dark place
Giving up Sir Galahad
Guys turning their girlfriends into Mommy
We want them around making us a sandwich but not actually...
I got a prostate like an Idaho potato but I am still a good stick man- Marlon Brando Last Tango in Paris.
The teeter totter
Should I bother talking about the cancel culture and how stupid it is?
Am I brothers and sisters in the left wing really going to tank this? Defund the police? Really? What do you got in there? Sawdust?"
Cassandra part 2- Dudes! There are Greek soldiers in that horse. I kid you not.
The Film Festival and the Day Care
No More Process
Getting the shit kicked out of me
Come on man- Joe Biden about everything
The Supreme court turned into a bunch of pussies. Big Surprise
It was 8 zip in the Nixon Tape case not 9 zip. -
John Allen survives yet another battle with "what is".
meditation, questioning,critical thinking,
what the fuck is happening now?
who am i?
who cares?
Fuck it
LOL
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Prospero and what is.
All suffering is an argument with what is.
Suffering is not a glitch.
Allow suffering to be.
Investigate.
Space.
Party down.
Repeat.
Let your indulgence set me free
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John Allen and what is.
00:09 Deconstruction of musical mirror. Brown Sugar cultural time capsule.
01:45 Don't want that in the mirror. Don't want that in the mirror
02:33 Groundlings demanding a different ending for Hamlet.
4:00 Cinema Verite: Taking a sip of coffee.
06:36 So much for Cinema Verite
07:47 People think Trump is the epitome of an American businessman because he played one on TV.
09:00 A little aside about ex girlfriends. Yuuch. Cinema Verite
10:15 We've been really good friends but I had to have a heart attack.
11:00 Walking the walk and talking the talk.
11:45 Feeling better is taking a pill
13:16 Maybe this is the one. One what?
14:05 I get these little periods of bliss and then they just kinda run out of gas.
15:44 Every once in a while one of them will come off the ground that I haven't seen before.
!5:45 I really am a horrible lying hypocritical asshole.
15:46 Oh and a leech.
17:08 Wait for thunderbolt. No thunderbolt.
19:40 It's like being a parent again. Ooops. Again. Still. Right. I am a parent still.
20:20 I have to be responsible. Is it true?
21:27 Amateur Lesbian Porn
24:15 The worst for a guy. It's okay.
24:40 Viagra. The boys on the bench.
26:00 I knew a guy who blew a guy's head off with a shotgun.
26:05 Wrote a play about it.
27:00 Upper Canada boys.
29:15 Engagement theory
30:41 Boys run them like dogs
32:00 Homework. Worthless.
33:00 1971. I thought that was what the world would always be like.
34:33 The Stones.
37:00 We the people couldn't handle it.So we gave it back
39:35 Sounding tired. Sorry
40:24 OJ Simpson trial. The Usurping of public power. Monarchy is back.
42:00 Going into hope and I dont want to go into hope but...
43:00 Trump as a trip wire waking up the people; The beauty of the American system
46:00 I always wanted to be a cop when I played as a kid so I could be in charge.
47:00 Friendships are tough.
48:00 Slipping into senility.
48:23 Bad reading of the Hollow Men. Indulgence.
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John Allen and what is.
00:30 You say you want a revolution
1:55 I like the battle of Stalingrad as much as the next guy
2:22 True confessions.
3:08 My friend Dave
4:00 Another Cassandra moment
4:35 Terrific bang...Yuuch...I didn't like the way I said that. At all
5:05 No no no we are just friends.
5:50 Lets face it Old Guys are not great.
6:30 I'll just dance by myself and look at the floor.
7:00 Snitch culture
7:45 High falutin'
9:03 I just don't talk to anybody. It's easier.
9:45 When they take over they aren't going to be very nice to the people they take over from...Just guessin'
10:50 Okay not cheering about somebody being shot. Making a point about the media acting like a squirrel on speed.
14:00 Lets rat each other out.
15:30 They are showing you who they are...
17:20 Purity test
18:15 You are the one who is high and mighty
19:00 We come in wholes not parts
20:00 PTSD dating flash back
21:50 Jazz baby jazz
23:00 The Soon Come
25:02 Those gals they brought it down
26:15 Sex clubs and dancing.
29:25 I don't want to know anymore.
30:20 This is actually funny
31:00 Dick farm
32:00 The dream: Commenting about myself commenting about myself.
32:30 Snitch culture
33:15 Ooops...raised my voice...
34:00 If I say chick and it just makes you fucking crazy...
39:00 Don't die for your country let the other poor dumb fucker die for his.
41:00 Twinkly lights. My origin story
42:00 I had to find out. What happened? Where did those people go? Where will I go?
45:25 There is nothing as horny as a married guy.
47:00 That Soon Come feeling.
48:07 I didn't get to talk about how I feel like I am going to die all the time. Too bad.
49:00 Speaking about dying...
49:30 Quick Dad story.
51:00 Where was I?
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John Allen takes on what is. Its a draw. Nah. What is always wins.
And of course Amateur Lesbian Porn.
0:50 https://www.amazon.com/Self-Illusion-Social-Creates-Identity/dp/0199988781
2:17 Requiem for the Pandemic
05:58 Amateur Lesbian Porn Revisited
6:50 If ya gotta rub one out for sleep I get it.
8:30 I'm going to be living in a maytag box
9:10 I am not who I think I am. I am not who you think I am. I am who I think you think I am.
10:30 The looking glass self
11:30 The past is created from here
12:45 Breaking News: We are all going to die. We are always in the present.
13:30 It seems so fucking obvious.
13:45 After a certain age you got no fucking excuse.
15:15 We are going to defund the police force. Bad marketing idea.
15:45 Mr and Mrs. Anywhere: What the fuck? You want to get rid of the police force?
16:25 Have any of you met anybody who is a really bad guy?
17:30 Freaking out about saying "you know" while I talk about my Dad going to jail.
18:30 I don't want your blood money. Just let me get in my Jaguar.
19:40 The Fugue. Do the fugue.
20:00 Most people want to talk about how to feel better. I want to talk about getting in their pants.Bummer.
20:45 Repeating myself. Triggered memory of old girl friend hating me for repeating myself. That's three times you told me that.
23:30 Shocked out of your thoughts. Shocked out of your yourself.
24:40 Am I having a heart attack?
24:50 How would I do these notes?
24:30 I'll show you. I'll give it to you for free. Fuck you Return on Investment culture.
26:00 Defence Mechanism Alert: I was a good parent because I didn't want kids.
27:30 You know what I mean Jelly bean.
28:04 Investigations. Yoga. Ex girlfriends.
29:00 If you feel bad about the protest.
29:10 I am Cassandra. I dont look good in a dress.
29:00 Best sex Apollo ever had.
31:00 Awful confession. Among many.
31:30 Hard time on the blower.
32:00 The thing that you see in the protests you can see in yourself.
33:00 Democracy is the worst form of government, except for all the others. Churchill.
36:00 Nice sweet story about a stoned cold killer.
37:30 Should I tell that story? The Mr. Peanut story. No. But then I did. Figures.
38:45 A red neck tie
39:30 Memory...a compost heap of a poetic image.
43:00 Memory are episodes and are constructed from here.
44:50 John says hi.
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John Allen and what is.
Tie goes to the runner.
1:45 Hassle
2:23 We gots no balls... no offence to eunuchs
3:20 Eclectic guy
3:45 Rioting is kind of a gas
4:20 Putting porn in all the titles.
4:50 lesbian porn
5:24 I've gotten awful Zen. I hit a three wood off the carpet.
6:30 Elephant in the room
9:23 Empathy is an act of imagination
10:30 The don't know place
11:45 Wooo hoo the call...wake the fuck up
12:40 Man that's work
14:00 Go to the worst place right away
17:30 If I did that today they would take me out to the ditch and shoot me like a dog
19:00 If you reward people for greed. Big surprise when they act greedy.
21:00 Not a war...not when you can get take out
22:30 How can I go dancing?
23:15 Boring myself here...who the fuck cares what I eat...fuck off...I hate this guy
24:00 How do we deal with racism? Look inside. There is a place inside you that despises you.
26:15 Shut the fuck up man...I was just thinking that...
27:02 I was addicted to a woman and I guess I always have been.
28:45 Why is this guy laughing?
29:50 Let's start with being battered.
32:30 Terrible job. Keeping the status quo static.
32:45 Bad singing
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John Allen and what is.
0:50 Mothers day spike.
1:40 Making jokes as a defence mechanism. Whew LOL
2:25 Lets start with something right off the bat: I don’t know shit
3:32 Everything I have done is for a little bit of time.
4:20 I hate who I am when I am with other people
5:30 Viewer mail: Love me love please love me.
6:01 GPS locating in brain produces lots of good shit.
6:35 The buddhists...LOL
7:26 Gapped out like an old guy or doing a Joe Biden
8:00 Embarrassing moment for me listening to this part...more embarrassing than usual that is.
8:50 The Buddhists again.
9:30 What the fuck is this?
10:15 True confession: I was a rich kid and I didn’t like to suffer.
11:40 The whole point of parenting is that you are going to get it wrong. Whew LOL
11:50 Every action produces good and bad consequences and whether it is good or bad depends on where you are judging it from.
14:00 Viewer mail: Falling off the wagon
15:00 I'm interested in suffering.
16:18 I was an angry guy what can I say?
16:40 I didn’t have to fix the traffic jam.
17:50 You can't die before your time.
18:30 Why all of you are juicing...
20:00 When I get a grab in the stomach I know something is coming.
20:20 Juicing again
21:20 Attention is love
23:00 The sound of mind.
24:31 Drink a bottle of scotch and your mind will slow down and then shut right down when your head hits the table
24:35 Satori. Bliss. Until you wake up in the empty pizza box.
27:30 The fifth of vodka my mother used to hide in the dishwasher
28:15 In this moment we have everything we need or we would be dead.
30:00 Watch
31:13 The one story in the universe. The hurricane that never ends.
31:30 I want to have a drink
34:10 Where do you feel that anxiety?
35:00 Am I proselytizing? Ya think? Asshole LOL
36:00 Labels
36:30 Looking past the image of your foot.
37:03 Don't think about a Pink Elephant
38:15 Oh oh...Why is he doing this? Is this pretentious? Yikes...What do you think this is? Headspace?
41:28 Be with the tree man...Sheesh
42:00 Joe Biden gaffed. I thought it was a good joke. You ain't black. Come on Man...LOL
44:20 Don’t misunderestimate the Trumpster. Remember Steve Atwater.
45:20 "I just lost the south for a generation." LBJ on signing Civil rights Act legislation. He was wrong. Its been three generations.
47:35 You survived so many things that you didn't think you had a shot at...
48:27 Boo hoo
48:30 Some advice and a segue.
50:00 Have I fucked this up? Fifty minutes that's long enough for anybody.
50:19 Didn’t seem to be. Bonus part 2. Really? You have more to say? Lordy
50:35 On the porch after doing some yard work.
52:00 99 percent of people make the dumplings
53:00 The mind is constantly trying to figure shit out.
54:00 The bird singing is technical and adaptive. It had to learn to sing then had to forget what it learned.
55:16 Fuckin' heaven. Maybe I am a hippie.
57:00 Finger waggin'
58:00 Viral cloud of death
59:07 Not here. Not now. No thing
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John Allen and what is.
0:30 I’ve been walking and talking. Everything is a groove
1:20 What the fuck is going on right now?
2:00 Not Suffering when you are falling off a cliff.
3:12 If we all believe the same story we can all get together and kill things
6:00 What are you going to do?
7;00 Fairy tales, fairy tales
8:40 If you are feeling bad then it’s because you think this moment should be different
9:15 Case study…Blah blah
10:50 Wanting can be fun and desire creates suffering. We’re fucked
11:45 this moment is exactly as it should be
13:02 Your mind makes up a lot of bullshit. That’s it job.
15:00 things appear and dissolve in us
15:45 I’ve been running from the cops for years but now glass cases
16:00 Did he just have a stroke?
17:30 All you can be sure of in this moment is I am and I am right fucking now
21:00 It just doesn’t work out the way you thought it was going to
23:00 The creative space is a not knowing place and we don’t like it.
25:00 2 out of 15 is about right in terms of the covid
26:30 Viewer mail
28:00 let go of the anchor
30:00 God willing. Its just this
31:00 Mom Dad meet the folks
31:22 Dad stop blinking
32:00 This is fucking heaven and its all gone.
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John Allen and "what is" fight it out again. Same result.
0:30 Ahhh fuck it…clouds of viral load
2:15 Fire through dry grass- What does it all mean?
6:00 What’s the word I am looking for- Stupid. That’s the word. Stupid.
7:35 In twenty five years who is going to spike the ball
8:15 Trying to remember where to pee
10:40 CNN Headline- Caesar conquers Gaul and tweets rant about Pompey
11:45 Roosevelt, Goebbels, Trump…
13:00 What’s it all mean Alfie?
14:00 It’s not the fact that the guy is an asshole…It’s that you think he shouldn’t be an asshole
17:00 It’s difficult to have sex without emotion…Oh God…What does that make me?
18:00 When the cuff goes around the wrist…they always test it and then relax
19:45 An encyclopedia of hassles…
20:45 The Pandemic agrees with me. Will I get in trouble?
22:00 The Rickster quit his job before it started. Isn’t that fantastic?
25:00 Peter Pan going through the window. “Fuck. My back. Wendy? I hurt my back.”
27:45 Farmers. That’s what they are like (See 14:00 above)
29:30 Can you imagine what the United States would be today if Lincoln had let the South leave?
31:30 Its going to be amazing ladies and gentlemen how much privacy you are going to lose?
32:20 Old guy moment googling. What’s that guy’s name again?
35:00 Fridge door open spooning down the ice cream
38:00 The mask thing is a tell.
40:00 I didn’t want to have children. Somebody needier than me.
42:45 I’m a lousy therapist. I don’t have a lot of time.
43:45 Buddha’s first noble truth. A hassle.
44:30 Buddhist Bells.
45:00 Why the fuck am I doing the dishes?
45:20 Why isn’t someone else doing the dishes?
46:00 The most intimate relationship you are going to have in your life is with your own thoughts.
48:09 I’m not invested. I got other things to hang myself for.
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John Allen argues with what is all by himself. So what else is new?
1: Don’t fucking lose your job
12: Book of job
14: What the fuck is going on?
17:01 Argument with what is?
17:44 Everything should turn into a should
23:09 I Gots nothing to lose
25: Copyright
25:50 How can you say the Emperor has no clothes when the Emperor is paying you?
29:40 Joe Biden six points up in florida
30 They aint going to war. You are.
31:35 You look like you are in a cesspool of hell
32:30 I’ve tried to be a good boy and I am sick of it.
35:40 In the basement now
38:09 I am pretty sure I am going down
42:00 getting you through the pandemic
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John Allen returns with what is:
0:00 Vertigo
4:00 Losing teeth.
12:00 Pointing to the future.
22:00 The opposite is true.
31:00 Mutation.
40:00 Michael Jordan.
46:00 An Imperfect Union.
57:00 I’ll do it when I do it.
1:03:00 Going all in.
1:05 The end is here all of the time.
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John Allen returns with what is:
1:00 Cleaning stuff up.
3:00 Paternalism and taking away the picnic tables.
13:00 Doctors.
22:00 A good handyman.
40:00 Submissive fantasies raise the ante of illicitness.
51:00 Michael Lewis.
59:00 Unknowingly caught in a loop.
1:03:00 Out of control growth is cancer.
1:09:00 Moral issues are now front and centre.
1:14:00 Decision Trees: Football Manager vs Proust.
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John Allen returns with what is:
3:00 Eating big steaks and fucking some girls.
11:00 Epidemiologists breaking out in smiles.
12:00 Letting the fastball go into the old folks home.
14:00 Jailed in our houses on a beautiful spring day.
16:00 Working on the pyramids.
21:00 The future is always now.
25:00 Belief - another fucking mythology you can grab on to and drown with.
29:00 The computer game where something random doesn’t happen is not much fun - Allan Watts.
35:00 Bob Dylan and projecting through Kennedy.
41:00 The things we thought weren’t going to change are changing.
50:00 When I’m at my best I’m a passenger.
55:00 Eisenhower’s warning.
1:07:00 A future full of minefields, betrayal and self-interest.
1:10:00 Mornings are for crying.
1:13:00 Death - Guaranteed.
1:19:00 Chief Seattle.
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John Allen returns with what is:
0:00 Low flying ducks.
2:00 Don't need airplanes anymore.
3:00 People are the problem.
8:00 Trump walks away.
11:00 Yahoo protesters.
19:00 No issues.
26:00 Henry Ford and the birth of the consumer economy.
32:00 Discovering the little moments in life.
38:00 Volleyball beach takeover.
45:00 Going inside.
51:00 Zoom ruins the day.
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0:00 With Mum and Dad at Google Home.
8:00 The Inner Guru will take you where you need to go.
18:00 The peak is a good sign.
24:00 Eastern people are the nicest.
33:00 We are a product of the things that rub up against us.
34:00 All men are misogynists at heart.
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0:00 Our kids are going to grow up in hell.
3:00 Trump’s "Liberate" tweets are Machiavellian genius.
4:00 Like Trump - getting away with everything.
10:00 The numbers keep going up in Canada.
14:00 Pandemic haves and have-nots.
21:00 We live in a monarchy: private business runs things and we don’t have a say about it.
34:00 Hitler’s Birthday. Gotta know your enemy.
37:00 Why Shakespeare? He’s the best.
39:00 Immediacy.
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