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  • "No one can even understand. You can't measure the magnitude of that pain. You can't measure the pain that we went through."

     

    Producer: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: A refugee recounts her experience of the horror and devastation of the Rwandan genocide.

     

    This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #113 in August 2018

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Upstart: upstart.com/happening; Best Fiends

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: extreme violence, war, genocide, murder, assault, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed:   "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie; "Water" - Johannes Welsch

     

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    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

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  • Hosted and narrated by John Stamos, The Grand Scheme: Snatching Sinatra is a complicated, nuanced story of one imperfect man trying to redeem himself by pulling off the perfect crime. Did you ever feel like everything’s broken, and it’s your job to fix it? That’s how Barry Keenan was feeling back in 1963. He was broke, unemployed, hooked on booze and pills, and his family was falling apart. Barry needed a miracle. And against all odds, he got one. One day the voice of God came over the radio in Barry’s car and told him there was a simple solution to all his problems: all he had to do was kidnap Frank Sinatra, Jr. For the first time ever, Barry Keenan shares his version of the bizarre story in his own words, from beginning to end. This is just a preview of The Grand Scheme: Snatching Sinatra, but you can listen to full episodes at wondery.fm/TGS_TIAH.

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  • "The hardest part is that I still don't have any answers...what came into my house that night?"

     

    Producer: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: A musician is sideswiped by a sudden break into a nightmarish world that will not let him go

     

    This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #103 in November 2017

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Caliper: trycaliper.com/happening; Grove: grove.co/happening; ThredUp: thredup.com/happening

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual violence, hallucination, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed:   Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

     

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  • “It’s almost as if like I could feel my whole self just changing at this point and just changing in the way that I trust people…and questioning myself and everything.”

     

    Producer: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: After a chaotic upbringing, a man assigned female at birth finds a new community with caring mentors, when their mental illness threatens to unravel his entire reality.

     

    This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #124 in January 2019

     

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Literati: literati.com/happening; BetterHelp: betterhelp.com/happening

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, treats of violence, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed:   "Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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  • “It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.'”

     

    Producer: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: A woman recounts her childhood dealing with a mentally ill father obsessed with Disneyland.

     

    This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #79 in September, 2016.

     

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Grove Collaborative: grove.co/happening; Upstart: upstart.com/happening; Best Fiends

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed:   "Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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  • “All of a sudden within a hundred meters of your house that’s where the worst thing happens and suddenly the world becomes different…you can’t go back to who you were.”

     

    Producer: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: A man is relentlessly stalked by his girlfriend's ex.

     

    This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #114 in August, 2018.

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: GoodRX: goodrx.com/happening; Literati: literati.com/happening; ThredUp: thredup.com/happening

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: stalking, attempted murder, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed:   "Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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  • “It was just full chills over my body, tears in my eyes, it was that moment of I don’t know, I don’t understand, I don’t know.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock

    Episode Summary: A woman who seeks awakening through myriad healing practices finds her ultimate challenge when she goes missing in a Maui forest.

     

    Today's episode featured Dr. Amanda Eller. You can find out more about Amanda by going to AmandaEllerPT.com. You can also find her on Instagram: @amandaeeller

    And on Facebook: @amandaeeller. Amanda is currently living on the island of Maui and is offering her healing services to both the local and global community through in-person and online sessions.  

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Show Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

    Website for Jason Blalock: https://jasonblalock.com

     

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

     

    Episode Sponsors: BetterHelp: betterhelp.com/happening; Ancient Nutrition: ancientnutrition.com, promo code: HAPPENING

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: near death, eating disorder, body dysmorphia, hallucinations, explicit language

      

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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  • “The not knowing is awful, and it’s awful from day one and it’s awful thirty years later, but every day that goes by you get more and more in reality.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock

    Episode Summary: Decades after her brother disappeared in the early 1980s, a woman becomes deeply involved in the search for a missing friend.   

    Today’s episode featured Sarah Haynes. Somebody out there knows something about her brother Jon Haynes, who went missing in Boulder July 1981 just days after arriving for college. If you know anything, please contact the Boulder police department. There is a $10,000 reward for info leading to his body, his car, or for information about who may have harmed him https://apps.colorado.gov/apps/coldcase/casedetail.html?id=258

     

    Sarah’s Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/sarahspitfire 

     

    Her animal sanctuary on Maui is called Kitty Charm Farm and the Facebook page is:

    https://www.facebook.com/KittyCharmFarm

     

    Website for Jason Blalock: https://jasonblalock.com

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

     

    Episode Sponsors: Lord Jones: lordjones.com/happening; Upstart: upstart.com/happening

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: missing person, abusive threats, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

     

     

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  • “It planted a seed in my mind that has never ever gone away even now that people might not be who they say they are.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

     

    Episode Summary: A woman is haunted by a relentless threat of danger when her pursuit of safety turns into obsession.

    Today’s episode featured Hannah. Hannah is a writer living in California. If you’d like to reach out, you can email her at hannahwrites08@gmail.com

     

    Website for Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Simplisafe: simplisafe.com/actually; ThredUp: thredup.com/happening

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic abuse, mention of suicide, mention of murder, criminal activity, sexual assault, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes/Embers” – SkyeVoyager https://linktr.ee/SkyeVoyager

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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  • “I felt like I was sort of drifting along as something besides human, like I had stepped onto another planet inside my head.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: A man haunted by an early childhood trauma finally establishes his own identity only to be sideswiped by another unwanted, shocking exposure. 

    This episode featured Michael McAllister. He's a writer working on a book-length memoir, and you can find out more about him at his blog, dogpoet.com, or on Instagram at @dogpoetmike.

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Betterhelp: betterhelp.com/happening; Ancient Nutrition: ancientnutrition.com, code HAPPENING

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault, child molestation, suicidal ideation, terminal illness, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

     

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  • “You are in absolute darkness, and until you are in that kind of situation it’s hard to understand what darkness is.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: A lifelong traveler heads out for a quick bike ride in the Swiss Alps and finds herself lost in a dark, icy unknown.

    Today's episode featured Ava Chisling. Ava is a media lawyer and writer from Montreal. You can find out more about her on her website, avachisling.com. Waiting for herd immunity before she can travel again, Ava is hard at work in her hometown, where her chances of getting lost are only 53%.

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Upstart: upstart.com/happening; June’s Journey

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: mention of suicide, near death, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

     

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  • “The person who was pulling was just stronger than the person who wanted a perfect life.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

     

    Episode Summary: Growing up with a close, religious family a young woman’s aspiration for perfect beauty turns her into the very image of herself she was afraid of. 

    Today’s episode featured Caroline. To learn more about Trichotillomania, go to www.bfrb.org. There you can find additional information about Trichotillomania and other body-focused repetitive behaviors, as well as support groups and helpful resources.

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Website for Andrew Waits: www.andrdewwaits.com

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: ThredUp: thredup.com/happening; Lord Jones: lordjones.com/happening

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: body dysmorphia, trichotillomania, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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  • “I was really lost and I was so incredibly desperate for someone to love me…and to fill the void that had kind of been opened in me .”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Matt Volla

     

    Episode Summary: Following an early childhood trauma, a woman seeks to fill the void with a series of unhealthy relationships, until a fairytale romance promises to be everything she ever wanted

     

    Today's guest prefers to remain anonymous, but if you'd like to reach out to her directly, you can email at HerSavePoint@gmail.com, or connect on Discord at HerSavePoint#5365.

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Website for Matt Volla: www.mattvolla.com

    Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

    Episode Sponsors: Betterhelp: betterhelp.com/happening; Simplisafe: simplisafe.com/actually

    Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

     

    Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

     

    Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

     

    Content/Trigger Warnings: childhood trauma, childhood sexual assault, rape, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

     

    Services

    If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

     

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

    National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

    National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

    Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

    See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

  • “That feeling that you get when you find out an important piece of information, that ‘aha moment’ was happening constantly. I felt as if somebody put my brain into a microwave.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

     

    Episode Summary: Growing up in a home of abandonment and neglect, a teenager finds a grand, new reality in the rabbit hole of addiction until they can no longer find their way back.

     

    Today’s guest prefers to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to them, you can email at artichoke.heart456@gmail.com

     

    Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

    Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

     

    Website for Andrew Waits: www.andrdewwaits.com

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  • “I was just left fighting this invisible thing inside me, the root of which I didn’t know.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: A woman grows up with an idyllic childhood in Scotland, when a phobia of mysterious origin begins consuming her thoughts and eventually her future

     

    Today’s episode featured Rachel Balcarek. You can find out more about Rachel on Instagram @bearscenario.

      

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    Content/Trigger Warnings: emetophobia, agoraphobia, panic attacks, depression, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: Sk”Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

     

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  • “In horror movies there’s this beautiful moment for the protagonist where the monster’s real, everyone can see it…but a lot of times in real life, there isn’t a neatly wrapped up ending.”

      

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock

     

    Episode Summary: A young man growing up in an abusive home falls into a whirlwind romance that throws him into another cycle of chaos

     

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    Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, drug use, explicit language

     

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    Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

     

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  • “I cannot get over the fact that this actually happened. It felt strangely prophetic.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

     

    Episode Summary: Growing up with an unreliable mother, a woman develops severe OCD with multiple phobias, until she must confront the most improbable scenario

     

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    Content/Trigger Warnings: OCD, obsessive thoughts, health anxiety, cancer, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes/Embers” – SkyeVoyager https://linktr.ee/SkyeVoyager

     

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  • “I was forced into being vulnerable, I was forced into being present, I was forced into existing suddenly with my lights turned on.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli

     

    Episode Summary: Grappling with her identity and disruptive health anxiety, a woman reaches in adulthood with a dream job and strong community, when suddenly her worst-case scenario becomes a reality.

    Today's episode featured Natalia Provatas. Natalia is a Writer from Los Angeles. You can find out more about her on Instagram @chola4hire, and on her website, nataliaprovatas.com. Since we recorded this episode, Natalia's treatment has been going well, she is living independently again and working on her Memoir Ghosting My Death Doula, a series of funny essays about her battle with breast cancer.  

     

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    Content/Trigger Warnings: graphic medical descriptions, near death experience, cancer, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

     

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  • “No matter how hard you fight against having no change in your life, it’s going to come anyway.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine

     

    Episode Summary: Growing up in an environment of constant change, a woman vows to find a different path to stability, only to have a shocking revelation turn her world upside down

     

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    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

     

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  • “If you could imagine having thoughts that frightened you, then other times they made you believe things about your perception or what you were seeing weren’t real or distorted…you would do anything to stop it.”

     

    Producers: Whit Missildine, Matt Volla

     

    Episode Summary: After making a successful career and surviving several tumultuous relationships, a woman descends into the darkest depths of severe mental illness

    Today’s episode featured Melissa. You can find out more about her on her website, ifnotnowthenwhen.website/, which is still in progress, but which she hopes to create as a resource for others with similar struggles.

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    Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, suicide attempt, sexual assault, psychosis, explicit language

     

    Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

    Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

     

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