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  • In this episode, Ash sits down with Kate Goold, a working mum of two who recently celebrated her first year alcohol-free. Kate’s journey began with chronic physical pain and three hip replacements in four years—an ordeal that left her on crutches, in and out of hospitals, and barely able to care for her children. But what began as a decision to help her body heal physically sparked something much deeper: a complete emotional and spiritual transformation.

    Kate shares her experience with chronic pain, debilitating depression, and self-medicating, all while trying to maintain the appearance of having it together. She opens up about the turning point that led her to quit drinking, the unexpected grief and growth that came with that choice, and the clarity she’s found in sobriety.

    Now 18 months into her alcohol-free journey, Kate is showing up for herself and her family in a way she never thought possible. She reflects on identity, boundaries, motherhood, and what it means to truly come home to yourself. Her story is a powerful reminder that healing isn’t linear, but it is possible and even one small decision can lead to a million changes.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Authenticity and Sobriety

    03:03 Kate's Journey to Sobriety

    06:09 Daily Life and New Routines

    09:07 Transformative Fitness and Mental Health

    12:08 The Role of Forgiveness and Discipline

    14:49 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Struggles of Depression

    18:02 Self-Medicating and the Impact of Pain

    20:57 Turning Point: The Decision to Quit Drinking

    23:58 Preparation for Sobriety

    26:55 Reflections on Alcohol and Confidence

    34:10 Navigating Sugar Cravings and Caffeine Choices

    35:36 The Journey of Alcohol Abstinence

    36:35 Building a New Life Without Alcohol

    37:48 The Importance of Community Support

    38:53 Facing Social Situations Sober

    40:31 Realizing the Lifelong Commitment to Sobriety

    41:31 Embracing New Experiences and Overcoming FOMO

    43:08 Learning from Mistakes and Staying Vigilant

    44:32 The Evolution of Friendships

    46:29 Finding Deeper Connections

    47:59 The Impact of Sobriety on Parenting

    49:27 Personal Growth and Self-Discovery

    51:25 The Role of Mental Health in Sobriety

    53:00 Cherishing Everyday Moments

    54:33 Advice for Those Considering Sobriety

    56:06 The Journey of Self-Respect and Boundaries

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  • In this week’s episode, Ash sits down with Andrew Campbell, founder of Hush Property and a respected figure in Melbourne’s high-end real estate market. Known for selling luxury homes with discretion and heart, Andrew shares a side of himself few ever see—the man behind the polished exterior, and the deeply personal journey that shaped him.

    Andrew opens up about losing his father at age 22, growing up with a mother living with bipolar disorder, and how work became both a coping mechanism and an addiction. From battling insecurities and being bullied at school to navigating grief, divorce, financial setbacks, and public criticism, Andrew reflects on the moments that brought him to his knees and the mindset shifts that helped him stand back up.

    Now 50, and entering what he calls his “second act,” Andrew shares how cold immersion, gut health, affirmations, inner child work, and spiritual practices have helped him redefine what success truly means. This is a powerful story of vulnerability, fatherhood, and the quiet transformation that happens when someone decides to stop performing and start living.

    The episode highlights are:

    04:31 Daily Life and Holistic Wellbeing

    07:12 Hiding Behind a Smile: Andrew's Struggles

    13:00 Childhood Reflections: The Fat Boy Struggle

    15:14 Family Dynamics: Growing Up with Mental Illness

    18:03 The Impact of Grief: Losing a Father at 22

    22:07 Navigating Young Adulthood: Partying and Loss

    25:23 Coping with Mental Illness in the Family

    27:24 Career Transition: From Personal Trainer to Real Estate

    27:43 From Business Setbacks to Real Estate Success

    30:05 The Drive for Success and Competitive Spirit

    31:14 Overcoming Financial Struggles and Criticism

    34:49 Navigating Criticism and Embracing Change

    36:30 The Power of Self-Talk and Mindset

    38:11 Health Practices: Cold Water, Sauna, and Gut Health

    41:34 The Importance of Following Your Intuition

    44:41 Reality TV: A New Challenge and Branding Opportunity

    49:24 Personal Growth and Comfort in One's Skin

    52:50 Looking Ahead: Family and Presence Over Material Success

    55:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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  • In this powerful episode, Ash sits down with Katharine McLean, a holistic counselor, trauma-informed mentor, and founder of The Light Becomes Her. With over 23 years of experience guiding others through healing, Katharine shares her deeply personal journey through addiction, recovery, and inner transformation.

    After decades of high-functioning alcohol use and hidden drug addiction, Katharine hit rock bottom while leading mental health teams by day and battling inner chaos by night.

    In this conversation, Ash and Katharine dive into the root causes of addiction, childhood trauma, and the disconnection from self that fuels destructive behaviors. Katharine opens up about how she used inner child work, subconscious reprogramming, and spiritual practices to rebuild her identity from the inside out.

    This is an intimate and enlightening conversation about healing the nervous system, rewiring belief systems, and stepping into a life of authenticity, service, and grace. If you’ve ever wondered what’s possible beyond addiction, this episode will leave you inspired.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Katharine McLean

    03:05 Katharine's Daily Life and Practices

    05:54 Overcoming Barriers to Ecstatic Dance

    08:59 Hiding Behind a Smile: Katharine's Photo Story

    14:55 The Reality of Addiction: Functioning Alcoholism

    20:00 Childhood Experiences and Their Impact

    28:02 Seeking Approval and Relationship Patterns

    31:00 The Role of Inner Child Work in Healing

    38:16 The Illusion of Quick Fixes

    41:46 Meditation as a Tool for Transformation

    45:46 The Breaking Point: A Journey to Sobriety

    52:30 From Recovery to Empowerment: Building a Business

    56:29 Emotional Regulation: The Mind-Body Connection

    01:01:35 Navigating Business and Personal Growth

    01:06:36 The Power of Choice in Recovery

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  • In this deeply personal episode, Ash sits down with her dad, Rod Butterss, a seasoned entrepreneur, former AFL club president, and long-time member of the recovery community.

    Together, they reflect on life in recovery, the reality of relapse, cultivating self-awareness, and what it means to truly reinvent yourself at any stage of life.

    Rod opens up about his recent relapse after more than a decade of sobriety and the humility and courage it took to come back and start again. With honesty and warmth, he shares stories from his life, including his busy childhood in a household of 12, navigating trauma, addiction, enormous success, financial loss, and rebuilding with purpose.

    Ash and Rod explore the emotional landscape of identity, love, intimacy, and grief, and how Rod is using this chapter of his life to reflect, heal, and deepen his spiritual practices. They also discuss his ambitious new venture in biotechnology and why he's more committed than ever to living in alignment and being of service.

    This is a story about second chances, self-reflection, and the power of choosing to grow through what you go through.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Recovery

    02:59 The Importance of Family Bonds

    05:49 Navigating Recovery and Self-Education

    08:56 Public Perception vs. Personal Struggles

    11:59 The Role of Vulnerability in Recovery

    15:01 Understanding Relapse and Its Impact

    18:06 Exploring Childhood Trauma and Relationships

    20:54 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Acceptance

    23:56 The Power of Intuition and Energy

    26:50 Grief, Masculinity, and Emotional Expression

    31:07 Navigating Grief and Coping Strategies

    34:30 Resilience and Life's Unexpected Turns

    39:20 The Journey of Entrepreneurship and Generosity

    45:32 Taking Steps Towards Change and Recovery

    49:03 Understanding Choices and Personal Growth

    55:51 Facing Addiction and Seeking Help

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  • In this latest episode, Ash sits down with beauty corporate executive and fitness instructor Niki Kiskiras. Beyond her career achievements, Niki shares her deeply personal journey of self-discovery, overcoming societal expectations, and reclaiming her independence after ending her marriage in her late 20s.

    Coming from a traditional Greek-Australian background, Niki opens up about the immense shame and fear she faced when making the decision to leave her marriage, a life path she had followed because it was what was “expected.” She reflects on the pressure to present a perfect life while internally feeling lost, the guilt of disappointing her family, and the reality of choosing herself despite cultural norms and external judgment.

    Ash and Niki explore how fitness became a powerful tool for self-liberation, how her relationships evolved post-divorce, and why she ultimately stepped into a life of authenticity, personal growth, and fearless reinvention. They also discuss Nikki’s decision to freeze her eggs as an act of self-empowerment, navigating grief in unexpected moments, and what it means to truly invest in oneself.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Authenticity

    02:52 Niki's Journey: From Corporate to Fitness Instructor

    06:05 The Impact of Family and Cultural Background

    08:57 Navigating Life's Challenges and Personal Growth

    12:08 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Wedding Photo Story

    14:57 The Decision to Separate: Fear and Shame

    17:54 Finding Authenticity and Purpose

    21:02 The Role of Fitness in Personal Transformation

    23:45 Living Consciously: The Relationship with Alcohol

    31:05 Navigating Personal Growth and Friendships

    36:01 The Journey of Egg Freezing

    42:30 Understanding Relationship Needs

    52:24 The Reality Behind Social Media

    57:31 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


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  • In this episode, Ash sits down with Alcohol and Midlife Coach, Belinda Stark, who shows that it’s never too late to transform your life after making her own significant changes in her mid-50s. After running a successful fashion business for over a decade, Belinda made the bold decision to change careers, inspired by her own journey of overcoming depression, breast cancer, divorce, and a complex relationship with alcohol.

    Belinda shares her personal struggles, including postnatal depression and hospitalisation after the birth of her second son, the moment she realised alcohol was no longer serving her, and how she finally found the courage to step into sobriety. She reflects on the tools that helped her along the way, the challenges of reprogramming deep-seated beliefs, and the incredible shifts she has experienced in her relationships, self-esteem, and overall happiness.

    Ash and Belinda also discuss the importance of self-compassion, navigating midlife reinvention, and why it’s never too late to make a change.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Resilience

    02:39 Belinda Stark: A Journey of Courage

    08:28 Hiding Behind the Smile: The Struggles Within

    18:02 Childhood Influences and Early Habits

    22:50 The Turning Point: Acknowledging Alcoholism

    26:36 Facing Breast Cancer: A Life-Altering Diagnosis

    30:09 Overcoming Health Challenges

    33:08 The Role of Mindset in Recovery

    35:16 The Journey to Sobriety Begins

    39:39 Tapering vs. Cold Turkey: Finding What Works

    40:59 Navigating Social Situations Sober

    47:27 Tools for Sustaining Sobriety

    49:02 Transforming Relationships Through Sobriety

    53:44 Empowering Change in Midlife

    55:53 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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  • In this latest episode, Ash has a deep and powerful conversation with Ryan Trainor, exploring his transformative journey from a successful entrepreneur to a more authentic and balanced human.

    They discuss the importance of curiosity, connection, and the need to let go of control in life. Ryan shares his experiences with mental health, the pressures of success, and the impact of childhood on his quest for relevance. The conversation also touches on the use of psychedelics for personal growth and the empowerment that comes from taking responsibility for your relationships and experiences.

    Ash and Ryan explore the constructs of reality, the importance of community and connection, and the journey of personal growth through challenges. They discuss the need for open conversations, the impact of facing rock bottom, and the transformative power of meditation and mindfulness.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Authenticity

    01:47 Ryan Treanor's Entrepreneurial Journey and Wake-Up Call

    03:06 Curiosity and Connection in Life

    09:13 Letting Go of Control and Embracing Faith

    11:24 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Cost of Success

    18:15 Childhood Influences and the Quest for Relevance

    24:39 Empowerment Through Responsibility and Relationships

    27:19 Exploring Psychedelics and Personal Growth

    32:04 The Constructs of Reality

    34:06 Defining Our Avatars

    36:25 The Need for Connection

    37:51 Navigating Community and Authenticity

    40:13 The Power of Open Conversations

    44:20 Facing Rock Bottom

    49:32 Meditation and Mindfulness

    53:25 Shifting Desires and Values

    57:16 Creating Meaningful Memories

    01:00:14 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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  • In this episode, Ash welcomes back a friend of the show, Kath Elliott, an alcohol mindset coach now entering her sixth year of sobriety. Kath returns to share openly about her recent experience of navigating divorce in sobriety.

    Kath discusses the fears that held her back, and how she ultimately made the decision to choose herself. Ash and Kath go on to discuss the emotional rollercoaster of grief, self-discovery, and learning to sit with discomfort, and how Kath found clarity through sobriety.

    The ladies also explore dating sober, redefining wealth beyond finances, and the power of stepping into life’s unknowns with courage. If you’ve ever questioned whether staying is harder than leaving, or if you’re afraid of what’s on the other side of a massive life transition—this episode is for you.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Welcome Back: A Familiar Face

    03:08 Navigating Life Changes: Grief and Divorce

    05:55 The Decision to Separate: A Journey of Intuition

    08:49 The Impact of Sobriety on Relationships

    11:57 Children and Separation: A Delicate Balance

    14:52 Redefining Success: Lessons from Marriage

    18:02 Embracing the Unknown: The Power of Self-Love

    20:52 Facing Fears: Financial and Emotional Challenges

    24:09 The Journey of Dating Sober

    26:54 Wealth Beyond Money: Redefining Abundance

    30:06 Looking Ahead: Love and New Beginnings

    33:08 Non-Negotiables for an Authentic Life

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  • In this episode of Behind the Smile, Ash is joined by former reality TV star Davey Lloyd, who you might recognise from shows including The Bachelorette and Bachelor in Paradise. Now a builder living in Sydney, Davey opens up about his struggles with addiction which took him to the brink of death after overdosing in 2023.

    In this candid conversation, Davey shares his harrowing journey through addiction, a life-threatening seizure, and the path he is now on in recovery. He reflects on the moments that led to his near-death experience, the emotional turmoil that followed, and the transformative power of rehabilitation. Davey discusses the importance of self-discovery, the challenges of maintaining sobriety, and his commitment to helping others facing similar struggles.

    This interview is as raw and unfiltered as it gets.

    The episode highlights include:

    03:02 Valentine's Day Reflections and Sobriety

    06:04 Daily Life and Struggles with Motivation

    08:57 Understanding Addiction and Mental Health

    11:58 The Impact of Childhood on Adult Behavior

    14:49 The Burden of Shame and Guilt

    18:05 Living Amends and Personal Growth

    21:02 The Slow Process of Recovery

    23:46 Learning to Connect Authentically

    27:09 The Reality of Hair Loss and Substance Abuse

    28:58 The Overdose Experience and Its Aftermath

    32:31 The Turning Point: A Life-Altering Experience

    39:06 Confronting Addiction: The Aftermath of a Seizure

    48:35 Rehabilitation: A Journey of Self-Discovery

    55:08 Finding Balance: Life After Rehab

    01:01:15 Looking Ahead: Writing a Memoir and Advocacy

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  • In this special solo episode of Behind the Smile, Ash Butterss marks a huge milestone—five years of sobriety. Reflecting on her journey from rock bottom to a life beyond her wildest dreams, Ash shares the raw truth about what it really takes to break free from addiction and step into a life of clarity, peace, and purpose.

    From walking into rehab convinced she’d learn to “drink like a lady” to realising she needed to create an entirely new life, Ash opens up about the lessons, struggles, and profound shifts that have shaped her over the last five years. She talks about overcoming shame, rebuilding self-trust, and learning to surrender to something bigger than herself.

    If you’re navigating your own transformation, whether in sobriety or any other area of life, this episode is filled with wisdom, hope, and a powerful reminder that real change happens one small step at a time.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Celebrating Five Years of Sobriety

    02:55 Reflecting on the Journey to Recovery

    06:10 The Transformation of Life Post-Rehab

    09:00 Understanding the Roots of Addiction

    11:55 The Role of Self-Discovery in Sobriety

    15:11 Building a New Life After Addiction

    17:57 The Importance of Community and Support

    20:55 Facing Challenges in Early Sobriety

    23:45 The Shift in Perspective on Alcohol

    26:48 Embracing Change and Growth

    30:03 The Power of Small Steps in Recovery

    32:57 Finding Freedom in Sobriety

    36:12 A Message of Hope and Encouragement

    The episode I referenced is called: Ep 61. Impulsivity, genetics and the science of addiction with Aaron Thomas

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  • In the latest episode of Behind the Smile, host Ash speaks with Dean Beattie, a longevity coach who’s overcome his own struggles with addiction. Having been sober for over 20+ years now, Dean shares candidly about the challenges he’s faced in recovery including healing his relationship with his family, overcoming financial fears and forming healthy intimate relationships.

    He reflects on the role of validation in his life and how he found the strength to get sober at the age of 28, ultimately transforming his life through the 12-step program and mindfulness practices. Dean also discusses the impact of grief, the role of therapy, and the significance of support systems for men. He also highlights the need for authentic connections and the benefits of holistic practices like yoga.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Behind the Smile: Introduction to Authenticity

    05:05 Dean's Journey: From Addiction to Recovery

    10:09 The Impact of Childhood on Addiction

    14:52 The Role of Validation and Intimacy in Addiction

    20:05 The Turning Point: Getting Sober at 28

    25:08 The Transformation: Life After Recovery

    29:28 Taking Ownership and Finding Peace

    31:17 Navigating Grief and Loss

    34:33 The Role of Therapy and Healing Modalities

    37:15 Confronting Temptations and Living Authentically

    40:30Making Amends and Family Dynamics

    43:45 Men's Mental Health and Support Systems

    46:34The Impact of Role Models on Men

    48:26 Yoga: A Path to Connection and Healing

    52:36 The Men's Reboot Program: A Holistic Approach

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  • In this week’s episode, Ash sits down with Jodi Clark, a business mentor and alcohol-free coach, to discuss her journey towards sobriety and self-discovery.

    Jodi shares how it was actually a 100-day weight-loss challenge that motivated her to go alcohol free, yet after seeing the positive impact it had on her mental health and relationships, she decided to stay sober for good. In this conversation, Jodi shares her transformative journey towards sobriety, discussing the profound impact it has had on her self-esteem, relationships, and overall quality of life.

    Along her journey, Jodi has built a community supporting other women to go alcohol free and reflects openly on the challenges of balancing work and family life while pursuing her passion for helping others. Jodi also highlights the significance of vulnerability and authenticity in her journey, encouraging listeners to embrace their own paths to wellness.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Jodie Clark and Her Journey

    02:56 Daily Life and Finding Joy in Work

    06:03 Setting Intentions for the New Year

    08:58 Hiding Behind a Smile: Jodie's Photo Reflection

    11:59 The Impact of Alcohol on Jodie's Life

    15:02 The Turning Point: A Hundred Day Challenge

    17:57 The Journey to Sobriety and Self-Discovery

    26:58 Transformative Journey: The Impact of Sobriety

    33:12 Building Self-Esteem Through Sobriety

    39:04 Creating a Supportive Community: SoberFlourish

    45:05 Navigating Life's Challenges: Balancing Work and Family

    51:02 Embracing Vulnerability: Lessons from the Journey

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  • In this latest episode, Ash has a deep conversation with psychotherapist Alex Crouch, who shares his journey of overcoming alcoholism and the impact it had on his life. Alex discusses his childhood experiences growing up in the USSR before moving to Australia, his struggles to fit in, and how alcohol became a coping mechanism. He reflects on the consequences of his addiction, the lessons learned and the impact he now wants to make in the world.

    The conversation highlights the path to recovery, the significance of authenticity, and the ongoing journey of self-discovery and healing. The conversation also delves into men's mental health, the impact of societal pressures, and the complexities of relationships and self-esteem in recovery.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Authentic Living

    02:57 Alex's Journey Through Addiction

    05:48 The Impact of Alcohol on Identity

    09:06 Consequences of Alcohol Abuse

    11:58 Childhood Experiences and Their Influence

    14:46 Family Dynamics and Addiction

    17:51 The Search for Connection

    20:54 Transitioning to Adulthood and Relationships

    24:11 The Illusion of Happiness

    26:52 Understanding Emotional Suppression

    29:50 The Path to Recovery and Healing

    31:42 The Journey to Recovery Begins

    39:19 Understanding the Rock Bottom Experience

    46:17 Men's Mental Health Crisis

    54:08 Navigating Relationships and Self-Esteem

    01:00:39 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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  • In the latest episode of BTS, Ash speaks with Mel Watkins, a Psychotherapist specialising in addiction and mental health. Mel shares her personal journey of overcoming substance abuse, navigating relationships, and finding her purpose in helping others. The conversation delves into the complexities of addiction, the importance of self-care, and the impact of family dynamics on mental health. Mel's candid reflections on her past struggles and her path to sobriety provide valuable insights for anyone facing similar challenges.

    In this conversation, Mel shares her journey from working in the heavy party culture of events to getting sober and the profound impact that’s had on all areas of her life. She discusses the cycles of infidelity and alcoholism, the complexities of love addiction, and the importance of self-compassion and seeking specialised support in recovery. She highlights the significance of surrounding oneself with positive influences and the necessity of understanding one's own needs for a fulfilling life.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Mel Watkins and Her Journey

    02:59 Daily Life and Self-Care as a New Mom

    05:53 Navigating Social Situations in Sobriety

    09:07 Hiding Behind a Smile: Mel's Past Struggles

    12:03 The Impact of Alcohol on Relationships

    15:08 Realizations and Turning Points in Sobriety

    18:04 The Journey to Becoming a Therapist

    20:58 Childhood Experiences and Family Dynamics

    23:54 The Complexity of Addiction in Family

    27:03 Finding Purpose in Helping Others

    37:11 Navigating Change: From Events to Mental Health Support

    39:26 The Cycle of Infidelity and Alcoholism

    43:42 Overcoming Infidelity: The Path to Sobriety

    48:52 Understanding Love Addiction and Avoidance

    56:56 Breaking the Cycle: Steps Towards Recovery

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  • In this week’s episode, Ash welcomes back Patrick Kennedy to hear how he’s been managing life’s ups and downs in sobriety since recording their last episode together 18 months ago.

    They explore the challenges faced after the initial phase of sobriety, the importance of emotional health, and the significance of building connections within the recovery community. Patrick shares his experiences with daily routines, the impact of physical fitness, and his dabbling into breathwork.

    Patrick opens up vulnerably around his recent journey through heartbreak, and how at 3 years sober, he once again found himself hiding behind a smile. Ash and Patrick also discuss the role of spirituality in recovery, and the ongoing struggle to trust your own thoughts.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction and Journey of Sobriety

    03:09 The Reality of Recovery

    05:58 Daily Life and New Discoveries

    08:45 Building Connections in Recovery

    12:05 Emotional Sobriety vs. Physical Sobriety

    15:00 Finding Gratitude and Moving Forward

    17:58 Breathwork and Emotional Release

    20:56 Reflections on a Photo from the Past

    27:27 Navigating Heartbreak and Public Appearances

    32:41 The Role of Faith in Recovery

    37:04 Trusting Your Own Thinking

    44:25 The Importance of Connection and Community

    47:14 Reflections on Early Sobriety

    50:09 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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  • In this episode of Behind the Smiles, Ash engages in a heartfelt conversation with Jacintha Field, a family and child counselor, about her transformative journey through personal challenges, including divorce and parenting. Jacintha shares her experiences with mental health, the importance of self-love, and the tools she has developed to support children in emotional distress.

    The discussion emphasizes the significance of boundaries, vulnerability, and the healing power of compassion, both for oneself and others. In this conversation, Ash Butterss discusses the complexities of parenting, particularly focusing on emotional regulation in children, the importance of self-worth, and the need for compassion and empathy in parenting. She emphasises the significance of allowing children to express their emotions, the necessity of setting boundaries, and the importance of self-regulation for parents. The discussion also touches on effective communication with children and the role of personal experiences in shaping parenting approaches.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Jacintha Field

    02:25 Jacintha's Journey of Transformation

    07:40 The Impact of Separation and Self-Discovery

    13:22 Navigating Divorce and Parenting

    15:20 Establishing Boundaries and Self-Care

    22:19 Finding Strength in Vulnerability

    26:09 Understanding Domestic Violence and Self-Worth

    28:04 Emotional Regulation in Children

    30:53 Compassion and Empathy in Parenting

    33:09 Navigating Child Meltdowns

    36:03 Communicating with Children as Adults

    38:51 The Importance of Boundaries

    41:39 Regulating Your Own Emotions as a Parent

    46:23 Finding Inner Peace and Self-Compassion

    You can connect with Jacintha Field on Instagram here. https://www.instagram.com/jacinthafield/

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  • To kick off season four of Behind The Smile, Ash welcomes Hayley Lloyd, a business and authority building mentor. Hayley shares her journey from a corporate hustler who struggled with substance abuse, to a successful seven-figure coach who is five years clean and sober. The conversation delves into Hayley's daily practices, the significance of visioning days for entrepreneurs, and her personal struggles with trauma and the facade of strength. Hayley reflects on her chaotic childhood and how it shaped her resilience and approach to life and business.

    In this conversation, Hayley and Ash explore the profound impact of family dynamics on emotional development, the role of alcohol as a coping mechanism, and the aftermath of trauma. They discuss their journeys towards sobriety, the challenges faced in relationships during recovery, and the healing that comes through spiritual awakening. This chat emphasises the importance of addressing underlying emotions and the transformative power of self-acceptance and accountability. In this conversation, Hayley shares her transformative journey from alcoholism to sobriety, which awakened her spiritual gifts and led her to a deeper understanding of inner authority. She discusses the importance of authenticity in personal and professional life, the role of spiritual practices in her coaching, and the significance of maintaining meaningful connections. Hayley highlights the necessity of somatic work and breathwork in healing and personal growth, and she outlines her non-negotiables for living an authentic life.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Hayley Lloyd and Her Journey

    06:11 The Importance of Visioning Days

    12:03 The Impact of Childhood on Personal Strength

    26:51 The Impact of Family Dynamics on Emotions

    33:31 Experiencing Trauma and Its Aftermath

    40:32 Navigating Relationships in Recovery

    50:46 Awakening Spiritual Gifts Through Sobriety

    57:20 Understanding Inner Authority

    01:09:31 Non-Negotiables for an Authentic Life

    You can connect with Hayley Lloyd on Instagram here. https://www.instagram.com/hayleyjunelloyd/

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  • To kick off the New Year, I’m sitting down with Trauma and Addiction Specialist Diane Young to discuss all things New Year’s Resolutions!

    In this conversation we explore the concept of setting intentions instead of New Year's resolutions and the benefits of taking small steps towards change. The conversation delves into the differences between heavy drinkers and grey area drinkers and the continuum of drinking behaviour. It also addresses the connection between childhood trauma and eating disorders, as well as the role of boundaries in relationships.

    The episode highlights are:

    03:23 Increased Awareness of Mental Health

    05:15 Setting Intentions Instead of New Year's Resolutions

    07:45 Taking Small Steps Towards Change

    09:32 Differentiating Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers

    13:12 The Inner Knowing and Loneliness in Addiction

    14:03 Understanding Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers

    18:27 The Continuum of Drinking Behavior

    20:57 The Benefits of Alcohol-Free Challenges

    23:06 The Impact of Alcohol on Mental Health

    26:05 The Expansiveness of Recovery

    27:28 The Connection Between Childhood Trauma and Eating Disorders

    30:44 Setting Intentions for Food and Body Image

    34:28 The Role of Sugar in Disordered Eating

    36:50 Healing Childhood Trauma and Filling the Inner Void

    38:07 The Impact of Childhood Trauma on Body Image

    40:36 The Importance of Boundaries in Relationships

    44:02 The Power of Self-Care and Self-First

    49:47 Setting Intentions for the New Year

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  • It’s my birthday this week and I’m turning 37, so to celebrate I wanted to give you all a gift! In this week’s solo episode, I’m sharing with you all my 37 game changing lessons that have made a huge impact on my life!

    These lessons span across all facets of the human experience including relationships, mindset, career and health. Of course, it wouldn’t be a Behind the Smile episode without discussing recovery, but these lessons are really applicable to anyone wanting to expand their mind and step into the very best version of themselves.

    You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss

    Check out the show notes here.

    If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include:

    • A healthcare professional

    • Alcoholics Anonymous

    • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia)

    • CheckPoint (global)

  • Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In this episode, Ash has a deep conversation with Emotional Regulation Coach Amy Mason. They explore the journey of self-discovery, the importance of emotional regulation, and the impact of relationships on personal well-being. Amy shares her transformative journey from a reactive lifestyle to one of conscious response, detailing her struggles with a long-term relationship and the physical manifestations of stress.

    The conversation emphasises the need for self-reflection, the significance of inner peace, and the challenges of transitioning from a career in hairdressing to coaching. She discusses the challenges of leaving her salon, the discovery of breathwork, and how it has positively impacted her lifestyle choices, including giving up alcohol and caffeine and prioritising her health. The conversation also highlights the importance of self-care and the benefits of investing in yourself.

    The episode highlights are:

    00:00 Introduction to Emotional Regulation Coaching

    03:00 Understanding Emotional Regulation

    05:51 Amy's Journey: From Reactive to Responsive

    09:10 Life Before Transformation: Relationships and Struggles

    12:01 The Impact of Stress on Health

    14:56 The Importance of Self-Reflection

    17:47 The Breaking Point: Leaving a Long-Term Relationship

    21:08 Navigating the Aftermath of a Breakup

    24:01 Transitioning from Hairdressing to Coaching

    27:06 The Role of Connection in the Beauty Industry

    34:03 Navigating Life Changes and Career Transitions

    36:52 Discovering Breathwork: A Life-Changing Journey

    40:57 The Impact of Breathwork on Lifestyle Choices

    44:13 Transforming Health: The Shift from Alcohol to Wellness

    55:49 Creating a Retreat Experience: Nurture and Nourish

    01:00:52 Investing in Yourself: The Importance of Self-Care

    Click here to find out how you can join Ash and Amy on their Nurture and Nourish Retreat in March, 2025!

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