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You won't get very far in this episode without realizing the click-baitiness of the title. The truth is, there was a time I wanted to keep all of my body shame and use it for fuel to "fix" my body and chaotic relationship to food. It never worked, and in this episode I'll talk about what did.
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Reimagining The Body course (use the coupon code REIMAGINE2023 at checkout for 50% off in the month of November) -
If you've spent any time in the somatic healing world, you're likely familiar with the concept of the body saying "no". I'll also often say that the body has a language that it speaks - sensation. emotion. pleasure and pain. Reactions and responses that say "no" and reactions and responses that say "yes".
And it takes a lot of time and practice to understand that language.
In today's episode I'll speak about feeling for the body's "yes" and the body's "no", and how it applies in several situations.
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What I wish I would have known when I was struggling and reading books about "mindful eating":
- Slowing down isn't a tool to make you eat less. It's a tool to notice what's happening.
- No amount of mindful eating is going to make eating less than you actually need serve you.
- Mindful eating doesn't have to be precious. You can eat in front of your favorite show. You don't have to be deeply meditative about it...it's really just in the case of compulsive or binge eating that removing distractions can be a useful tool.
- If you're absolutely desperate to change your body, attempts at mindful eating are probably still just going to be attempts at control.
- Mindful eating isn't just about the "mind". It's an embodied experience. It's not about an idea of how much you SHOULD eat, it's about getting to know your actual body.
- "Embodying a binge" really does mean "embodying a binge". What does a binge urge feel like in your body? What changes as you start to eat? What does the food actually taste like? What's it like to have this food take up space in your body? If shame comes up, what does THAT feel like? What's it like to breathe into it rather than let it spin stories in your head? What happens in your body if you don't immediately distract yourself after a binge? If you don't plan to starve yourself the next day? Can you get to know those feelings?
Binge eating taught me so much. Rather, EMBODYING the experience that I'd been fighting with for 15+ years taught me so much.
As it became safe to embody the entire experience of a binge, it started loosening it's hold.
It also became safe to change things from the inside of that experience.
I learned I could stop shaming myself and "starting over" when the binge was over.
I learned I was actually capable of stopping somewhere in the middle rather than being all-or-nothing.
Eventually I learned that a binge urge (the survival energy driving me to eat) wouldn't kill me if I didn't follow through. Or if I did so in a less checked-out way.
Basically I learned that I was lovable and safe, even in a pattern that felt like the worst thing about me.
And creating that kind of safety opened up room for other hidden parts of me to come to the surface. Embodying the binge was just the beginning.
P.S. I have a couple of spots for private clients and all clients get lifetime access to Free Spirit Academy courses (including Binge Freedom) DM me with questions, book a 15-minute call, or fill out the application through the link below ❤️
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Healing doesn't happen in a hurry. The hurry to be healed, integrated, enlightened, free, arrived...it's not as neat and tidy as a lot of self-help books or before-and-after photos might suggest.
It's more like, the harder we try to fix things, the harder our nervous systems work to keep us where things are familiar. Whereas, if we can slow down with ourselves, right in the behavior or with the part of us we hate or struggle with most, we can get to know it. There are often so many unknown steps in a healing process that we couldn't possibly plan them all out, let alone by a certain date. And often, the version of us that exists right here is the one most needing our acceptance and attention.
In this episode, I talk about the desperation and hurry I felt to "fix" my binge and emotional eating. I'll also share about the parts of myself I'd have missed meeting if the "hurry" had worked.
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THE TOP 10 MISTAKES I’VE MADE ON MY HEALING JOURNEY:
Honestly, I cringe a bit using the words "healing" OR "journey" because the internet is so oversaturated with wellness or spiritual teachers. I'm not interested in making "healing" my whole personality, but simultaneously I have always had this deep interest in why things hurt. What any kind of pain, emotional, mental, or physical, is saying. and coming from a background of religious and family trauma, being queer and undiagnosed neurodivergent, and all of the ways those pains spiraled out - into years of an eating disorder, self-harm, depression, anxiety, dissociation, and chronic health symptoms...I became fixated at some point on what it would take to feel free.
So whether I like the term or not, I found myself on a "healing journey" that I would say began when I got fired from my door to door missionary job and started removing myself from my church and toxic family patterns. I was in the thick of struggling with food and my body and had sooooo much accumulated trauma that it was just my "normal"...but taking those steps felt incredible. In fact, something I wish I could have told myself at various points is that there's no "heaven". There's no one point where all the things on all the levels are healed and you live happily ever after. Simultaneously, you don't have to WAIT until all the things on all the levels are healed to feel better.
Life, my body, my general state of being being better than they ever have been. As I thought back, I got to thinking about all the missteps and misunderstandings up until this point and I want to share them with you.
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This podcast is for you if you're feeling unsettled and unsafe right now.
It's for you if being alone, or home all the time, or having your world turned inside-out makes you want to crawl out of your skin.
It's for you if you're like a client of mine who told me this morning that she doesn't want to be stuck in her house with all that food.
This episode is the first class from my 30-Day program Coming Home to Your Body. In the month of August you can use the coupon code COMINGHOME50 to get 50% off the course.We'll be talking about:
...why you can be "perfect" with your healthy lifestyle and still feel unwell.
...how to build resilience in challenging times.
...the struggle to be 'present', 'mindful', or 'in the flow' no matter how much you meditate or use spiritual and self-care practices.
...the desire to take care of your health while struggling with self-sabotage, compulsive behaviors, and repeating cycles and patterns like overeating but you don't know why.
...when you've talked about your issues and traumas in therapy and feel like you've processed your childhood, but still struggle with anxiety, depression, a constant feeling of frustration or other painful emotions that don't seem to match the present circumstances.
...you've tried to 'just relax' or maybe you KNOW some of the nervous system lingo and you take deep breaths to 'deactivate your parasympathetic nervous system'...and you still just feel like a mess.
...and how to ACTUALLY learn to FEEL, rather than thinking about our feelings, reacting to our feelings, or numbing our feelings.
I hope this episode feels useful and supportive right now ❤️
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Coming Home to Your Body (code COMINGHOME50 for 50% off)
Work with Rande
Free Spirit Academy on Instagram -
The 15 minute audio you're about to hear is the introduction to my 30-day course Coming Home to Your Body. This is a course that all of my clients get when we start working together but it's also available on it's own or part of the Free Spirit Academy membership. This is easily my favorite course, addressing how the effects of trauma and stress can leave us feeling disconnected and trapped in our bodies. Learning about the autonomic nervous system, as tedious as it seemed on the surface, was huge in my own journey and I try to approach it in a way that's fun, hopeful, practical, relatable, and alongside simple but impactful tools that really make a difference over time. If this audio grabs your attention, there are links in the bio for more on this course.
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Coming Home to Your Body 30-Day Course
Free Spirit Academy Membership
Free Spirit Academy on Instagram
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Coming from a challenging childhood, dissociation became my "normal". As I left religion and pursued healing, the dissociation that was once completely disconnected from my body...went internal. Today we're looking at how attempts at embodiment and the pursuit of health can get sticky.
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Free Spirit Academy on Instagram
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I love a project. I love working towards something. I think that's pretty human. But for a long time my body was my project. I grew up in a holistic, seventh day adventist, vegetarian home. we used homeopathy and natural remedies and drank carrot juice and ate homemade bread. To this day I LOVE the taste of barley green powder because I have early memories of drinking it as something that would support my health. I wanted to know about all the supplements in the kitchen cupboard and what they would do for me. I wanted to be strong so I ate spinach straight out of the can. There was an early connection with the fact that what you eat has an impact on how you feel.
Simultaneously alongside all this, my relationship with food was kinda weird...
(Listen to this episode for more)
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Free Spirit Academy on Instagram
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So many folks I see, and this was me too, attach goodness and morality to their health. If something is wrong, they feel wrong. They will spin into stories about how they're creating their own disease or this is going to turn into something far worse. Can you make some space for the fact that not all of the contributing factors were in your hands? Your genetics, adverse childhood experiences, your environment and day to day stressors that accumulate.
There are areas where we have choice and can learn to be empowered...and there are factors we don't have control over. There are elements, like childhood trauma, that weren't our fault but that as adults we have quite a large degree of choice in how we address the effects. Having a sense of humor, when possible, can bring some lightness to what can be a serious and heavy healing process. Life is very short. Literally no amount of it needs to be spent beating yourself up anymore. That time would be better spent taking care of that part of you that so automatically goes into shame. Then, just coming back to what you best know works for you. again and again and again.
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Free Spirit Academy on Instagram
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Today I'm talking about the ways that shame lived in my body and fed into the cycle of binge eating and disembodied practices with food. I'll also talk about making my body safe enough to finally feel the shamed parts of me so that they could be understood and come to a more whole and free place.
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Free Spirit Academy on Instagram
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For a huge chunk of my life, trauma had left me flat, numb, and unable to feel what was going on in my body.
In today's episode I talk about the seemingly "normal" experiences that can lead to an overwhelmed nervous system, the symptoms or carrying stored survival energy, impulses, and emotions with us over a long period of time, and the symptoms that can occur as a result.
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Free Spirit Academy on Instagram
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After a bit of a hiatus, today I'm bringing back the podcast talking about what happened when trusty health practices were "taken" from me.
In this solo episode you'll hear about:
- The health challenges that turned my wold upside down.
- The practices that had to change and what happened to me physically, mentally, and emotionally.
- The surprises that came out of being forced to change the way I cared for myself.
- How this has affected my life and work
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Health Saga episode: https://www.buzzsprout.com/143037/11103472
Free Spirit Academy on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/free_spirit_academy/
Work with Rande: https://randemossclients.my.canva.site/rmwellness-mainpage -
Today I'm speaking with Holistic Health and Root Cause Practitioner Sarah Hook. Sarah and I have been connected online since our early wellness blogging days when we were certain we had it all figured out. Some years ago Sarah was bit by a tick and developed severe Lyme disease, causing her to question what she knew about wellness.
We talk about what it's like to need food restrictions after healing from an eating disorder as well as the ways in which we can get in our own way with our attempts at healing.
I hope you enjoy and feel supported by this episode.
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Sarah and The Healing Place on Instagram
Rande Moss Wellness
Free Spirit Academy Instagram
Free Spirit Academy Courses
The Feeling Files Podcast -
For the last year, I haven't been consistently present with my online work...and today you'll hear why. A cascade of events left me in a pretty low-functioning state until recently. Currently I'm a couple months out from a couple of minor surgeries and am feeling clearer and sturdier than I have in some time!
I don't believe we need trauma to grow...but I've learned a lot. Things I would have likely learned anyways, but squished into a short and painful time frame. I'm grateful for the growth and grateful for the healing.
Lastly, I'm *thisclose* to finishing my Somatic Experiencing Practitioner training and you'll be seeing my focus veer more and more in the direction of trauma, trauma integration, nervous system regulation, and embodiment. This feels very much in alignment with what Free Spirit Academy's always been about!
Thanks so much for being here and thanks for listening.
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Rande Moss Wellness
Free Spirit Academy Instagram
Free Spirit Academy Courses
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Free Spirit Academy's new and expanded intuitive eating program is being uploaded this month (February 2022)!
FSA members get ALL courses for $25 a month (no minimum commitment) OR you can purchase the downloadable version of Liberated here.
More options for working together:
Eating Psychology Coaching
Somatic Experiencing Sessions
Private Breathwork Classes -
In this solo episode, I'm talking about the idea of 'letting yourself go' and how that differs from the 'letting go of control' that needs to happen in order to make peace with food or integrate trauma.
There's also a very special deal on the Free Spirit Academy program Binge Freedom, links below!
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Binge Freedom (use coupon code DECEMBER50 for 50% off in the month of December 2021)
Work with Me
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Is it possible to take on a healing diet or a supportive protocol with a history of disordered eating?
Is there a way to have a healthy, alive relationship with food that's also intentional?
Is restriction 100% bad news in all cases?
Today I'm sharing my personal experiences with chronic illness, having a background of disordered eating from a young age. I'm excited to share this with you and hope it brings you more peace and freedom in your relationship with food and your body!
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Rande's Website
Free Spirit Academy Instagram
Free Spirit Academy Courses -
I want to start by saying that this episode is going to be worth a listen whether you're a person with ADHD or not!
Sophie Tully is a Biomedical and Clinical Nutrition Scientist and Health Coach and she specialises in creating highly personalised health plans, tailored to unique goals, lifestyle and biology.She uses a range of evidence-based, safe and effective tools and techniques, including nutrigenomics, biomarker testing, coaching and detailed case history analysis Sophie goes above and beyond to unpack health concerns and work on the root cause.
In this episode we talk about the link between neurodiversity, sensitivity, and chronic illness...
...what it was like to be diagnosed as adults.
...the role self-love plays in any diagnosis or journey.
...the modalities Sophie uses to support health challenges at their root and the role that medication plays.
...and lots more. It's a great chat, I'm very excited to share Sophie and her valuable skillset with you!
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Sophie's Website
Sophie's Instagram
Natural Approaches to ADHD Course
Rande's Website
Free Spirit Academy Instagram
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Today's episode is a sample of the Free Spirit Academy program, Body Love.
I talk about why addressing a painful body image is integral to healing a disordered relationship with food, or taking on a healing protocol.
Our bodies are home as well as incredible messengers - and by making peace with the body we have, we're much more easily able to hear it's messages.
Links:
Free Spirit Academy Membership
Body Love Course
Private Mentorship
Free Spirit Academy on Instagram - Show more
