Episodes
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“Why does my wife still act like I’m failing—when I’m working so hard to get it right?”
“Why is he always so overwhelmed and scattered—can’t he see how that affects me too?”In this episode of Memoirs of an LDS Servant Teacher, we kick off a new series exploring the unspoken emotional divide many couples face:
Husbands feel like they’re trying harder than ever—but it’s never enough.
Wives feel like they’re carrying emotional weight alone, and no one’s fixing the real problems.
And both wonder why so many good intentions still lead to conflict, shutdowns, or confusion.
We’ll explore:
Why planners, principles, and proven tools (like the DAR cycle) matter more than you think
How to build systems that restore spiritual confidence and emotional clarity
Why having your own “mission statement” and identity shields your self-worth from emotional sabotage
The power of consistent tracking—so you don’t have to guess if you’re progressing
Why the overwhelm you feel isn’t weakness—it’s often a sign of misaligned strategy
This episode is for husbands feeling buried by expectation and wives wondering why their husband still can’t “just get it.”
Let’s decode the emotional chaos—and build something better.Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/embracing-imperfections-and-fostering-compassion-in-marriage/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-WnF68Jz3c
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“Why does she still seem scared or upset—even when I’m finally trying to do things right?”
“Why does it feel like every step forward brings up more triggers, doubts, and emotional shutdowns?”In Part 5 of “I’m Trying So Hard to Get Things Right in My Marriage,” we dive into one of the most disorienting realities for husbands:
When your effort increases—but so does her fear.This episode tackles:
Why your wife may panic or shut down even when you’re calm, gentle, and spiritually grounded
How triggers, not logic, drive many of her reactions—and why that’s not your fault, but still your problem
The truth about “first dates” in marriage recovery—and why rebuilding trust means starting from the bottom
Why being “almost right” isn’t good enough—and how to lovingly try again without spinning out
How men can lead through emotional stalls by using spiritual clutch, brakes, and reflection
Why both of you need to track emotional RPMs to avoid burning out mid-conversation
Gentlemen, if you’ve ever asked yourself:
“How am I the problem again when I didn’t even mess up?”
This episode will reframe that confusion with clarity, empathy, and actionable growth tools.Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/triggers-vs-alarms/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HAX-mDM-Yw&t=1s
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“Why does it feel like the more I heal, the more she still hurts?”
“Why does my wife seem overwhelmed, doubtful, or even distant—right when I’m finally trying to get everything right?”In Part 4 of “I’m Trying So Hard to Get Things Right in My Marriage”, we tackle the invisible but excruciating disconnect between personal growth and relational pain.
This episode explores:
Why your wife might still feel emotionally unsafe—even when you’re doing the work
The surprising ways “trying to fix yourself” can leave her feeling more alone
Why reflection, writing, and spiritual planning matter more than charisma or checklists
How real presiding, providing, and protecting require emotional and psychological strength—not just physical effort
Why true intimacy begins with building a “greenhouse” of personal growth before inviting her inside
Gentlemen, if you’ve ever wondered,
“Why does she still seem so distant when I’m doing my best?”
...this episode is for you.You’ll discover why her reactions aren’t proof you’re failing—but signs of just how important your role actually is.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/working-on-emotional-intimacy-discussing-the-past/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8N8_vssS_iw&t=2s
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"Why does it feel like every time I open up, I just make it worse?"
"Why is my wife still hurt—even when I'm trying harder than ever?"In Part 3 of “I’m Trying So Hard to Get Things Right in My Marriage,” we tackle a brutally honest reality:
Your growth may be real.
Your repentance may be sincere.
But if your process of healing is invisible, your wife might feel more afraid… not less.This episode dives into:
Why some wives mistrust emotional updates (even when they’re genuine)
The silent damage caused by “unfinished black box reviews”
What happens when you share too much, too soon—before your plane is ready to fly
How to talk about your growth without triggering her trauma
Why spiritual leadership starts with documented effort, not just heartfelt words
The vital importance of daily DARs, reflection rituals, and clear identity statements
If your wife says things like:
❌ “You’re just saying what you think I want to hear.”
❌ “This doesn’t feel real.”
❌ “You’re going too fast.”
…this episode is for you.Learn why the right words at the wrong time can destroy trust—and what to do instead.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/reacting-to-toxic-people/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybqzJ039vw4&t=4s
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“Why is she still in pain when I’m trying everything I can?”
“Why does it feel like the more I talk, the less she trusts me?”Welcome to Part 2 of “I’m Trying So Hard to Get Things Right in My Marriage.”
This episode speaks to the heart of every husband who’s doing his best—but keeps hearing, “You still don’t get it.”If your wife seems overwhelmed by your efforts…
If she pulls away after you open up…
If she seems to want emotional intimacy, but then panics when it actually starts to happen…
You’re not alone—and you’re not failing.In this episode:
Why emotional timing is everything—and how the “clutch and gas” metaphor could save your marriage
How talking too much, too soon, creates emotional whiplash
Why your wife might feel less safe the more you “lecture”
The terrifying reason she shuts down when you’re finally trying to connect
Why it’s not about whether you’re trying—but how you’re trying
And what it means when she says, “It still hurts” even though you’ve changed
If you're ready to stop stalling conversations and finally drive emotional intimacy with precision—this one matters.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/the-power-of-anchors-habits-and-routines-a-path-to-happiness-and-calm/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nIgWTVWUCSM
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“Why does it feel like everything is still my fault—even when I’m doing better?”
“Why does she keep bringing up pain I didn’t even know I caused?”Welcome to Part 1 of I’m Trying So Hard to Get Things Right in My Marriage, where we tackle the moment every husband reaches:
You’re trying. You’re sincere. You’re changing.
But somehow… it’s still not enough for her.In this episode, we unpack the hidden pain points that wives carry—and why your progress can feel invisible or even infuriating to her if you don’t know how to handle it.
You’ll discover:
Why her long list of “problems” might be a signal of deep emotional wounds—not just complaints
The cultural damage of male echo chambers that normalize blaming women
How “fixing her pain” too quickly actually backfires
Why emotional intimacy requires feeling the “clutch and brake” like a manual car—not just logic
What silent husbands are learning in the back row… and why it might change everything
If you’re tired of feeling like the bad guy even when you’re trying to be the good guy—this episode will explain the real disconnect… and how to start bridging it.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/the-advanced-reflective-listening-tool/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-uFCwXHxQ0
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“Why does it feel like every little thing becomes a big deal to her?”
“Why can’t I just explain myself and move on—why is everything I say somehow wrong?”If you’ve ever felt paralyzed by your wife’s triggers… or confused why your explanations just make things worse… this episode is for you.
In Part 5 of Why Do I Feel Overwhelmed, Forgetful, and Like I’m Never Doing Enough, we unpack one of the most painful patterns in marriage repair:
The moment when your past choices show up in places you didn’t expect—and your wife’s emotional pain collides with your best attempts to be better.Inside this episode:
Why your “truthful” answers still feel like betrayal when you dodge the real question
The hidden emotional cost your wife pays just to attend a family dinner
What it really means when she says “I can’t even have friends anymore”
How to recognize your old shame patterns before they sabotage trust again
Why you must schedule emotional reflection like game film—not do it in crisis mode
How recovery actually mirrors the athlete’s discipline, not just the preacher’s words
If you’re wondering why she still seems so hurt—even now—and if you're tired of feeling like the enemy while you’re doing your best… you need this episode.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/masking/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hragOt5QhFA
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“Why does she keep finding problems… even when I’m finally trying to fix myself?”
“Why does it feel like I’m walking on eggshells, no matter how much I grow?”In Part 4 of this gut-level honest series, we tackle one of the most maddening disconnects in marriage recovery:
You’re trying harder than ever.
You’re cleaning up your past.
You’re opening up and staying consistent.But she still doesn’t trust you. And even worse—she seems to be pulling away more.
This episode explores:
Why “good intentions” don’t undo the damage of past behaviors
The common trap of arguing intention instead of owning impact
How even positive change can feel unsafe to her if it's not anchored in understanding
What partial honesty really communicates (even if you technically didn’t lie)
The truth about why defensiveness often protects shame, not progress
What spiritual strength really looks like when she’s “doing it wrong”
If you’re exhausted from trying, confused by her reactions, and desperate to understand what she needs from you now—this episode will help.
🎧 Listen in and learn how to create real emotional safety—even when you're not perfect yet.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/the-mighties-sons-of-the-covenant/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gf_EzcMEPW0
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“Why doesn’t she notice what I’m doing?”
“Why do I feel like every time I reach out, she pulls farther away?”In Part 3 of this brutally honest series, we confront one of the most painful patterns in marriage recovery:
You try to show up.
You say the right things.
You even check in, open up, and stay consistent.But it still doesn’t feel like enough.
This episode explores:
Why your wife may feel invalidated even when you compliment her
How “checking in” can go wrong if it becomes a test rather than a gift
The hidden ways men accidentally make progress about themselves
Why you feel desperate for a reaction—and how that desperation can backfire
The difference between truly connecting vs. just fishing for praise
What it means to serve without needing applause, especially when it’s hardest
You’re not crazy. You are doing the work. But if your emotional engine still runs on her validation—you may be building connection on a crumbling foundation.
🎧 Gentlemen, this episode is a mirror. Not a weapon. And if you’re ready to see what might be silently breaking trust… this one is for you.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/deals-a-formula-for-happiness/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3iDRvMIqms
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“Why does she get sad when I try to compliment her?”
“Why do I feel like I keep saying the wrong thing—even when I’m trying to be kind?”In Part 2 of this brutally honest series, we explore one of the most frustrating disconnects in marriage repair:
👉 You’re trying to love her.
👉 You’re offering support, even praise.
👉 And somehow… it still backfires.This episode reveals:
Why compliments that seem sweet to you may trigger pain in her
How objectification hides in even the most innocent words
Why your wife doesn’t want to be “pursued”—she wants to be known
What it actually means to speak your wife’s emotional language (and why it’s harder than you think)
The role of customized empathy in finally making her feel safe, seen, and valued
Why your honest intentions aren’t enough if you’re still stuck in old thought patterns
If your wife shuts down even when you're being “nice”… you’re probably missing a critical piece of her heart.
🎧 Tune in to learn how to move from confusion to connection—and how to stop accidentally hurting the person you love most.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/the-fourth-watch/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GNlsM2a6rL8
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“Why does she have so many pain points… and why do they all seem to point to me?”
“Why am I trying so hard—and still feel like I’m always behind, always wrong, and never enough?”In Part 1 of Why Do I Feel Overwhelmed, Forgetful, and Like I’m Never Doing Enough, we step into the heavy emotional space many husbands find themselves in:
You’re doing more.
You’re listening better.
You’re showing up.
And somehow… she’s still hurting.This episode digs into:
Why emotional safety isn’t created by compliments or checking boxes
The real reason your “support” may actually make her feel worse
What happens when your need for affirmation overrides her need for healing
How to stop rewriting the same painful chapter—and start building a new one
Why you keep forgetting what matters (and how to fix that without shame)
The role of identity statements in escaping old patterns and regaining spiritual traction
If you’ve ever wondered “What else am I supposed to do?”—this episode will give you clarity, hope, and tools to finally stop spinning in circles.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/triggers-vs-alarms/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ohQCiqAEzM&t=4s
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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"Why does she still feel unsafe… even when I'm trying to be supportive?"
"Why do I feel like the more I try to help, the more I get shut out?"In Part 5 of Why Do I Feel Overwhelmed, Constantly Behind, and Like I’ll Never Be Enough, we confront one of the most misunderstood stages of relational healing:
When showing up doesn’t seem to be enough—because your version of support still doesn’t meet her deepest needs.This episode reveals:
Why your instinct to "rescue" may actually reinforce her trauma
How your desire to be helpful often masks a fear of being unneeded
What it means to support without expectations—and love without controlling outcomes
The truth behind rejuvenation: why rest isn’t selfish, it’s sacred
Why you can’t “earn” trust with effort alone—it must be built with spiritual precision
The danger of forcing closeness instead of inviting connection
If you feel like you're doing all the right things but nothing is working—this episode will explain why… and what to do next.
This one isn’t about fixing her. It’s about finally understanding what it means to grow with her.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/advice-to-my-12-year-old-self/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8s0gWfXtMQ&t=2s
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“Why is she still upset when I’m finally doing the work?”
“Why do I feel like I’m always two steps behind—and still not what she needs?”In Part 4 of this brutally honest series, we unpack the silent tension eating away at so many relationships:
👉 You’re changing. She’s still hurting.
👉 You’re trying harder than ever… and she’s only pulling further away.This episode explores the painful dynamic between a husband fighting to grow—and a wife exhausted from carrying the emotional weight for too long.
Inside, we reveal:
Why your maturity might still feel like immaturity to her
How early rejections in life mirror current emotional setbacks
The difference between “working on yourself” and being ready for real intimacy
Why she’s not wrong to say “You’re still not ready”—and how to respond with dignity
What it means to honor her boundaries without blaming her for staying or leaving
How to stop expecting applause and start living with quiet spiritual integrity
If you feel like your wife is impossible to please—or if you’re a wife wondering how long you’re supposed to wait—this episode will offer truth, clarity, and real hope.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/french-fry-machine-metaphor/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIGKTWRqqvQ&t=5s
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“If I’m finally doing what’s right… why does she still act like I’m the problem?”
“Why do I feel like no matter how hard I try, I’m always failing her—and myself?”In Part 3 of this powerful series, we dig into a silent struggle few men know how to name:
You're working hard to change.
You're doing better than ever before.
But your wife still doesn’t trust it—and you’re starting to feel hopeless.This episode confronts the painful moment when her silence feels like rejection…
And when your exhaustion starts sounding like, “What’s the point?”You’ll uncover:
Why your progress may not feel safe to her yet—and why that doesn’t mean she’s ungrateful
How “waiting to be rewarded” sabotages real Christlike change
What your emotional burnout is really telling you (and how to recover from it)
How to lead with purpose, even when your efforts feel invisible
Why your growth must be about identity, not approval
If you're tired of feeling behind—emotionally, spiritually, relationally—and you’re desperate for clarity, this episode gives you the map your heart’s been missing.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/sons-of-helaman-empowering-young-men-through-faith-based-self-mastery/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SBAVPy0qBvM&t=1s
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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“If I’m doing everything I can to change… why does she still act like I’m the problem?”
“Why do I feel so exhausted, scattered, and unsure if I’ll ever be enough for her—or for myself?”In Part 2 of this raw and revealing series, we explore a painful crossroads in marriage recovery: when you're trying your hardest to grow, but she’s still guarded… and you’re starting to wonder if she’ll ever see you differently.
This episode dives deep into the emotional disconnect between husband and wife when:
He’s stuck in survival mode, trying to fix things without clarity or direction
She’s emotionally burned out but still expected to give, connect, and trust
Both are trapped in a cycle of misread intentions, unmet needs, and emotional exhaustion
You’ll discover:
✅ Why your wife’s coldness might be her cry for space, not rejection
✅ How your lack of direction might be feeding her fear
✅ What “emotional intimacy” really means—and why you both skipped it before marriage
✅ How to know if she’s truly ready for connection… or still gathering emotional resources
✅ What real resilience looks like (it’s not pretending you're okay)Whether you're feeling like a failure for falling behind—or wondering why her pain feels like an accusation—this episode offers clarity, direction, and a path forward.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/the-battle-of-perspectives-laman-nephi-and-the-power-of-faith/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UjixUFwtWRM
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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Why does she act like I’m still failing—even when I’m trying so hard to fix myself?
Why do I feel like no matter what I do, I’m always behind, always forgetting something, always not enough?In Part 1 of Why Do I Feel Overwhelmed, Constantly Behind, and Like I’ll Never Be Enough?, we pull back the curtain on one of the most quietly destructive patterns in struggling marriages: the lack of clear direction.
This episode tackles:
Why survival-mode living keeps your brain in chaos
How a missing GPS (identity + mission) sabotages her trust
The real reason your wife questions your growth—and why she has every right to
What happens when you try to change without a map… and expect her to follow
Why emotional overwhelm is not laziness—it’s a sign you’ve lost your why
The one question every wife is silently asking: “If I follow you… where are you taking me?”
If she doesn’t believe you’re changing—and you secretly wonder if you’re fooling yourself—this episode will help you slow down, reset, and start walking with purpose again.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/rebuilding-trust-a-husbands-guide-to-understanding-and-healing-betrayal-trauma/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gv4x7PWpru8
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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Why does my wife feel like I’m never doing enough… even when I’m exhausted, overwhelmed, and trying so hard?
Why does my brain keep spinning with guilt, forgetfulness, and a list of things I’ll never finish?In this episode of Memoirs of an LDS Servant Teacher, we dig deep into the internal chaos that plagues so many men in recovery and relationship repair. Whether you’re trying to get your life back on track, reconnect with your wife, or simply stay focused without forgetting everything—you’re not alone.
This week’s breakthrough strategies include:
Using 3x5 cards to brain-dump and organize your thoughts
Writing mission, purpose, and identity cards to anchor you when Satanic attacks hit
Building mental clarity to avoid overwhelm, guilt spirals, and constant reactivity
Learning why your wife’s disappointment doesn’t mean you're failing
And how remembering who you are can restore your energy and hope
You’re not weak because you forget or get scattered. You’re human. This episode offers tools to become mentally organized, spiritually grounded, and emotionally ready—without needing to be perfect.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/letter-to-my-returned-missionary-self/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RsvXDoQcUUI
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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Why does my wife always seem disappointed, no matter how hard I try?
Why do I keep forgetting my goals, losing focus, and slipping back into old habits—even when I want to do better?In this powerful episode of Memoirs of an LDS Servant Teacher, we explore the battle inside your mind that silently sabotages your progress. From forgetfulness and self-doubt to Satanic attacks masked as ordinary thoughts, this conversation walks through the exact tools men and women are using to catch destructive thoughts, flip them into truth, and reclaim peace and power in their daily lives.
Using nothing more than a stack of 3x5 cards and a sharpened sense of awareness, you’ll learn how to:
Recognize subtle, daily Satanic attacks before they knock you off course
Stop feeling like a failure every time your wife is upset
Replace toxic thoughts with truth in real-time
Define your season of life, so your purpose feels realistic—not overwhelming
Rebuild confidence, identity, and direction using the Eternal Warriors Battle Planner
If your mind feels scattered, and your wife’s pain seems louder than your progress, this episode is a lifeline.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/taming-your-dangerous-emotions-and-reclaiming-your-power/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWJ3rS21Hmw
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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Do you keep spiraling into guilt, rumination, or overwhelm when all you’re trying to do is improve?
Does your wife feel frustrated that you’re not doing enough—while you feel like you’re already drowning?In this follow-up episode of Memoirs of an LDS Servant Teacher, we dive into the daily experience of men who are trying to change but feel stuck in a fog of forgetfulness, mental noise, and emotional exhaustion. We introduce one of the most underrated tools for mental clarity: the Eternal Warriors Battle Planner and the powerful use of 3x5 cards to refocus, reflect, and reset.
Learn how to:
Identify your own “death spiral” and reverse it fast
Use simple visual tools to combat Satan’s psychological attacks
Stop blaming yourself for emotions you didn’t choose
Create a new pattern of reflection instead of rumination
Build consistency that your wife can trust—even if you still fall short
This isn’t about being perfect. It’s about getting back up faster.
It's time to stop trying harder and start planning smarter.Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/eternal-warriors-workshop/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V-gdoHSc3bg
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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Do you keep forgetting what actually matters? Feel like no matter how hard you try, you’re always behind—and your wife sees every dropped ball?
You’re not alone.In this powerful and practical episode of Memoirs of an LDS Servant Teacher, we go back to basics and uncover one of the most effective, low-tech tools for managing mental overload, emotional fog, and daily chaos: the 3x5 card.
Discover how a young man used this simple tool to train his mind, win daily battles, and transform his identity—and how you can use the same system to finally stop forgetting what matters most.
Whether you're a husband trying to rebuild trust, a dad juggling eight kids and two jobs, or just a man trying not to drown in life’s noise, this episode will give you real, actionable tools for:
Remembering your purpose in high-stakes moments
Refocusing your brain when it’s scattered or stressed
Building systems that help your wife see your growth
Regaining your personal dignity through consistent action
You don’t need to be perfect. You just need to remember what you’re fighting for.
Want to read more about this topic? https://www.lifechangingservices.org/specialized-self-mastery-training-winning-mood-battles/
Rather Watch Something? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4g6TykyVHyQ&t=3s
Check out Life Changing Services: https://www.lifechangingservices.org/
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