Episodes
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The end of ~The American Experiment~ is upon us. Here is some advice from one person who has lived the majority of her life under the oppressive thumb of Christian Authoritarianism. -
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
I just can't be close with men anymore. These are some reasons why. -
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
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Change is rolling in and I am afraid of it for the first time ever. I used to love change, change meant things might get better! But life feels so good in solitude that I am scared to re-emerge. But re-emerge I must. Can she make better life choices in the future? Stay tuned to find out!-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
***Editor's note: every time I gesture towards the table in this episode, there is a very annoying sound that happens that I could not hear until I started editing. I am so sorry. Me, the table and the mic are going to meet up and solve this before next week.
This week's episode is mostly about how I lived half of my life very traditionally and now everything I desire is very untraditional and how strange that is and what I've learned from the drastic shifts and how I'm moving forward and how you don't have to pick a life that's been modeled to you, you can make it up as you go. Pep talks abound!-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
topics include but are not limited to:
the fundamentalist religion to abuse pipeline
Ballerina Farm
Nara Smith
the tradwife and the selfwife
the danger and stupidity of The Strong-Willed Child by James Dobson
lots of things i struggle with
America's Sweethearts The Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders
the inherent grief that comes with deconstruction
being primed for abuse by abuse systems
and as always: a pep talk for you -
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
SELFWIFE episode 30 is about the importance of learning and prioritizing ~the basics~ late in life if you were never taught them in your formative years, including some of my current favorite basics that make me feel like I'm a great selfwife. Also sharing two new, easy, daily practices that I've implemented in my year of solitude, the importance of having the right tools and not keeping people in your life that make your stomach drop and your heart race on the regular.-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
**CW- child abuse, sexual assault, body dysmorphia and disordered eating are discussed**
Telling you some stories about how the male gaze was made the center of my life by my m*m since toddlerhood, what that's led to in adulthood, and how I've seen the light now (and want you to, as well) .-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
this episode is for the folks whose families hinder instead of help them // topics include: how to stay motivated, how to allow yourself to create if you don't come from creative people, the two dudes who made me believe i could make documentaries, continuing to create against odds and my decision not to make anything else until i'm out of student loan debt -
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
Will I ever not get sick to my stomach about marketing my work? Other topics discussed: Anxiety! Alcohol! Contrast! Leaving my phone outside overnight and having deep realizations! Just listen to the episode. -
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
topics discussed:
getting an agent in LA
auditioning
the commercial i booked
being called a blank canvas
BEING a blank canvas
unlearning being a blank canvas
allowing new (old) inspiration in
thoughts on
tori amos
stop making sense
tom waits
catching up with the world -
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
Topics Discussed:
Making my first Happy List at age 31
New therapist
Creating small avenues to joy
Being a reformed pick me
The impact of your primary caretakers putting your needs last
What we can learn from narcissists
Changing my phone number two days before my birthday
Eating the earth
My changing tastebuds
Not dieting, but teaching myself about food
Being in the beginning stages of holding the boundaries I’ve developed
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
On episode 24 of SELFWIFE, I'm joined by my lifelong friend Coleen who grew up in the same very small, very strange, very fundamentalist Christian church that I did. In this ep we remember the good, the bad and the embarrassing - like performing at the local mall in a kids' Christian choir called "SOOL" but pronounced "soul" ☹️-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
a term i've coined for a phenomenon i've noticed that tricks vulnerable people into remaining in dangerous situations-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
Diary episode - on:
loss, lessons, deconstruction, building standards late in life, getting better at boundaries, not knowing what's next, sitting in the pain and through it all - prioritizing oneself, telling the stories of my life, cutting family off and the rocky path that is escaping abuse when it's all you've known. -
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
Day after day, we watch mass death and destruction in the name of religion. Tale as old as time. Islam, Judaism and Christianity are the three, main, Abrahamic Religions and that got me thinking, what would I think of this ~Abraham~ dude if I read about him now, years after I've left the faith, deconstructed my cult-like attachment to it, and educated myself about world religions and the existential human need for belief? That's what I'm exploring in this episode-- reading Genesis as a former Jesus girl who was born into an extreme sect of the faith and has been educating herself out of it for 13+ years. (The Bible is FUNNY, folks. Really silly stuff in here, def was easier to accept as a kid.)-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
this week, on the topic of the crisis in Gaza and the history of Zionism, i'm platforming words by:
Sola (https://www.tiktok.com/@solathegem)
Raphael Mimoun (https://twitter.com/RaphMim)
Lady Speech (https://www.tiktok.com/@ladyspeechsankofa)
St. Levant (https://www.tiktok.com/@saintlevant)
and featuring an essay called "Thoughts On Gaza" by Meryl Coker, read for us by the author (https://twitter.com/merylisk)
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
as Israeli airstrikes continue to surge in Gaza, i'm seeing jokes about a new draft pop up all over the internet and i wondered all day about what that would look like these days. then i took the opportunity to ask my dad, who served in Vietnam as a Seabee from '68 to '71, what it was like being drafted as a teenager into a war he didn't believe in. he actually maintains that he *wasn't* drafted because he enlisted just before 18 so he could choose which branch he wanted to serve in. way to take the reigns, dad. i have a clearer picture of who he was when he was young and of his tender heart. he talks about "the buddy system", the guys with a death wish who tried to be macho, and he calls himself a "wheeler dealer." oh and he cries and so do i.
i hope you get something from this episode 𓇢𓆸
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music -
CREATORS REFERENCED:
Shirien.Creates
Subhi
MelekElbatta
DarkPredictions
Caffeine.and.lamotrigine
Crolla.Nation
TIKTOK BROADCASTING GAZA RIGHT NOW:
https://www.tiktok.com/@eyes.on.palestine
ARTICLE REFERENCED ABOUT CHARITIES AND SAFETY MEASURES:
https://www.npr.org/2023/10/13/1205235922/help-israel-gaza-humanitarian-organizations
CALL FORM + SCRIPT FOR CALLING REPS:
https://www.jewishvoiceforpeace.org/
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music
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a love letter to Rose and Robbie/ the importance of chosen family and what choosing my own family has done for me / what Robbie did when i almost burned down her house / the new place i go to in my mind to feel good .❀。• *₊°。 ❀°。
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music
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9 different things i've been practicing every day, for a little over a year now, to regulate and heal my nervous system 𖤣.𖥧.𖡼.⚘-
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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show
artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music - Montre plus
