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Scuyler Part Two!
My husband's story continues...Part One ended with Scuyler landing in San Diego and beginning the recovery years of his life. Making sober friends, finding a career, and actually working a Twelve Step program for the first time, Scuyler began his sober journey. We got married, opened our business, his father passed away...basically life happened and Scuyler's program waned over the years as he got busier and more stressed. Today's episode catches us up today, we celebrated his one year sober last week and the journey continues. Thank you all so much for being a part of my life and for caring about Scuyler :)
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(If listening through headphones, the first 16 minutes are difficult to hear Scuyler, but then it evens out - stay with me!!)
Part One of my husband's incredible story. Scuyler grew up in an affluent area of Northern California, spending summers at the family home in Nantucket, surrounded by wealthy families and privilege. A gifted athlete, a knee injury at sixteen threw his entire world off course. Strung out on oxycontin and kicked out of high school his senior year, Scuyler's world completely crumbled. By the time he was 18 he was doing his first jail term and had a felony strike in California. Not even being extradited at 22 from Florida to California by US Air Marshals and accused of homicide didn't stop his escalating drug use. Part One brings us to Scuyler turning 29 and beginning a new treatment center in San Diego, the year he also met me. I REALLY want to hear what you guys think of my husband's episode...I am BEYOND proud of him and his vulnerability and strength in this episode.
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As some of you know, last year my husband went through a gnarly relapse - it was HELL on both of us. He spent very little time in our home in 2023 and I was desperate to hide that fact. This week last year, I released an episode sharing what was really going on and that I didn't know if my marriage was going to work. I was in a place of heartbreak and resignation, but also determination to start making moves to stand on my own - without him if need be.
When I released this, he had resurfaced from Mexico, dirty, picked up, emaciated and sick. I allowed him to sleep in the living room downstairs with all of my valuables locked in my car, keys in my bra, while I tried to find him a detox we could afford. Over the ensuing weeks, two things happened - one, we couldn't afford anything nor get him into a free detox, and two, he actually seemed to be finally beaten. Cut to this past Monday, September 2nd 2024, he just celebrated one year sober. I interviewed him on Monday and that episode will release next week. Today's episode is the episode I released last year at this time. I wanted to revisit this time together to catch up anyone who is new to the show, but also to share the true miracle that is recovery. I was totally resigned to the end of my marriage and through recovery, Scuyler has totally turned things around.
The second half of the episode is a breakdown of the Twelve Steps, specifically for anyone who is interested in getting sober but has heard terrible things about the Twelve Step community (AA, NA, HA, etc)
(Twelve Step breakdown begins at 35:40 if you would like to jump to it :)
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If you have ever dealt with heartbreak in recovery, this episode is for you. I had the opportunity to interview my long time friend, Ivey, who got sober at 18 years old. We go through her childhood and early drug use in the first hour, and in the second hour, we delve into her marriage and motherhood at just 22 years old with a few years sober, and her subsequent divorce by 27. Ivey is so incredibly vulnerable and honest in sharing her experience with heartbreak and then dating in sobriety, and I am so proud of her.
Ivey and I also talk about our recent separation in our friendship...if you have been listening to the show for a while, you have probably heard me mention a friend that I have missed and have often expressed deep regret about losing - this is who I was talking about. Ivey and I had the opportunity to make amends to each other and I while I hate that we had a disagreement in the first place, I love that in real time you all were able to walk with me through a crushing friend breakup and then see it resolved...through recovery, we can restore and repair important relationships and it's a beautiful thing. :)
As always, please let me know your thoughts! DM me on Instagram, or email [email protected]
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Part Two with Jed Payne! Y'all LOVED part one - today we pick up with Jed right where we left him, in East Baton Rouge Parish Prison...which is as terrifying as it sounds. We travel with Jed from prison, back into sober livings, back down kratom and suboxone roads, and into a sober relationship that ultimately ends in relapse and heartbreak. In Part THREE (yes, three!) we will finally see Jed's happy ending - which I assure you, finally finds him :)
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Ooooh, Y'ALL. This one goes HARD! I was not expecting the crazy stories I heard from Jed Payne, the host of podcast, "Church & Other Drugs." Jed was raised in the bible belt, with the influence of Christianity strong in both the community and within his home. Shooting heroin for the first time at 15, by the time he was in his mid-twenties, Jed had been to over 20 rehabs, all to no avail. Throughout his active addiction, his faith remained a beacon of hope, continuously showing up for him when he needed comfort. Today is part one of Jed's story - let me know your thoughts! DM me on IG, email [email protected] or leave comments on Spotify!
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Welcome back to another episode of Chasing Heroine! Y'all will love RJ Elizarraz, owner of Oak Forest Recover in Agoura Hills and host of the "Against All Odd's" podcast with Rachel Slocum and Hunter Sheppard.
I may have related more to RJ's story than any other guest. The details of our lives are completely different, but his feelings about not needing traditional recovery because of being so incredibly special :) is exactly how I felt as well.
After finding himself strung out on heroin over and over again, RJ finally found lasting recovery through connection with other men in a truly accidental sober living.
Let me know your favorite part of RJ's story!
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Narcan Nate is back, y'all! Just for one episode :( UNLESS we get some more NDPEs or other fun stories, voice mails or emails and I'll bring Nate in when we collect a few, sound good?! Nate has been up to his usual capers...saving the community with narcan training and drug testing and he's back in Twelve Step after a brief hiatus.
👀 ALSO! At about 20 minutes in - we both stop talking because you hear a train in the mics - my editor cut out the train sound so it sounds like I’m INSANE and just cut him off talking about trains - I swear I’m not and we both stopped speaking bc you could hear a train. 😅😅😅
Let me know what y'all think!
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I am so happy to bring you guys my interview with singer songerwriter, Edwin McCain! I had a great time chatting with Edwin about his adventures with executives at the Atlantic Record Label, touring with Hootie & the Blowfish, his experience in rehab, acceptance and anger. I can't wait to hear what you guys think about this episode!
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When I asked Amanda Crossley to be a guest on the show, I actually had NO idea she had been featured on one of the most infamous episodes of Dr Phil in the shows history. Amanda and BOTH of her sisters became addicted to heroin while living with their parents in New Jersey. Amanda reached out to Dr Phil for help and the women were flown to LA, berated and chastised on TV in front of millions, and sent to separate treatment centers around the country. Sober now for nearly a decade, Amanda is a success story. And what about her sisters? Find out in todays episode - let me know what you guys think! I can post comments now on Spotify so comment if you liked the episode!
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Today's episode is all about Tweaker Madness...Garret McClendon has done multiple prison terms and spent years of his life manufacturing methamphetamine. Garet has now been sober for over eleven years and credits his success in recovery to his willingness to finally just try what was suggested by his counselors. Garret replaced transmissions in the middle of the night, saw tree people on the cameras in his makeshift meth labs and wore a blue Fedora hat when he was on a sick one. ;) This episode has all the hilarious tweaker capers and meth madness your heart could desire, plus a healthy dose of recovery and hope. Thank you for listening, please let me know what you think!
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Trigger Warning: SA
I had such a great time chatting with my friend, Nikea. I met Nikea in Twelve Step and am honored to be able to share her story with you guys :) After childhood antics smoking weed and drinking, Nike was given the ultimatum - move out or join the Army. She chose the Army. Shipped off to South Korea after bootcamp, Nikea's life changed after a sexual assault that occurred the second weekend after her arrival. This assault led to a behavioral spiral of acting out and escalating partying. Eventually finding sobriety in 2023, Nikea is such an asset in our recovery community and in my life. Let me know what y'all think!
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Today I have the honor of sharing the wisdom of my incredible sponsor, Rachael Jarrel, through our conversation about sponsorship and finding a higher power that "you can do business with." How does one find a sponsor? What should you look for? What happens if you and your sponsor disagree about an issue? Rachael and I discuss these questions, we talk about working steps to shift our perspectives and finding a higher power when you're angry with God. Please DM me your thoughs or answer the question box on Spotify!
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I LOVED chatting with Marley, y'all. Her story is wild, tragic, heart breaking and heart warming. From dancing at age 18 to help save the family home to performing sex work while dope sick to grand larceny and benzo black outs - Marley's story is a story of triumph, personal growth and why we never stop trying. Marley went to 21 treatment centers before accumulating her current sobriety time. Let me know what you guys think!! Thank you all so much for listening and being a part of my life :)
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Hey y'all! Today you're meeting another friend of mine from my Twelve Step home group meeting, Jakeb Hensely. Jakeb got sober at twenty years old after finding fentanyl in his junior year of high school. As the class os 2020, he was in the first wave of kids that were sent home...never to return or walk in a graduation. After that, Jakeb floundered through a few part time jobs while his drug use continued to escalate. I love bringing younger guests to you guys - Jakeb even spent his 21st birthday sober! As always, DM me your thoughts!
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Today I am so honored to introduce you guys to Carmina! I have known Carmina in the rooms of Twelve Step recovery for several years and have always admired her. She started using heroin at 17 years old, traveled around the West Coast, landed in prison and finally got sober for the last time two weeks before being released from prison. Now 15 years sober, Carmina has built a successful sober living program, facilitates breath work sessions, is a mother and "remains malleable and teachable" to alternate forms of a Higher Power.
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**TRIGGER WARNINGS
In this episode, Kellee speaks very openly and honestly about domestic violence, abuse and assault. Also at 1:03:00 I ask her to explain what a "hot rail" is in great detail! If this will trigger a craving for you, please skip ahead to about 1:10:00
Today, I have the pleasure of introducing the Nod Pod family to Kellee Lengyel. Kellee landed in foster care at age six and was bounced around through the system and reluctant family members until the age of 18. Beginning work as a stripper, Kellee eventually progressed from weed to cocaine and meth and spent her early 20s in complete chaos and instability of active addiction. After becoming pregnant, she began making slow but steady changes to her life style and completely redesigned her life. Let me know what you guys think!
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Hey y'all! This is the ONE jail story I have yet to tell anywhere . Literally one of the craziest events of my entire life, and probably the wildest four days of my active addiction. As always though, there is purpose in the madness, and this story is no different. A few episodes ago my guest Kevin said that a "miracle" can just be a shift in perspective. I absolutely love that idea and today you and I are going to discuss the perspective shift that "rejection is protection." Typically when we are rejected for anything, or by someone, we feel it is based on our value - that we aren't "good enough." What if we can shift our belief system to believe that rejection is a good thing, and absolutely unrelated to our value? Let's talk about it! Let me know what ya'll think! DM on Instagram or email me [email protected] - love you guys!
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Question...do you guys have a preference between dating someone in recovery or dating a normie? If you're in a committed relationship now, what was your preference before? Today I speak with the creator and CEO of Loosid Sober Dating app - I would love for you guys to check it out if that's something you're interested in - BUT USE THIS link so they know it's through my podcast lol ;)
https://loosidsoberdating.com/landing3if4/
MJ's story is a wild tale of boozing it up from New York, to college in Boulder, to urban clothing lines in LA and finally getting sober and becoming a successful entrepreneur and creator of the Loosid online sober community. Between NY high school basketball star and CEO of a sober community we have a lot of fighting, cocaine, smoking crack right out of rehab, blacking out and missed chances at success. MJ fits right in to our crazy Nod Pod family!
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Heyyy, yall... :) How is everyone?! You guys are gonna love today's episode with my friend, Kevin. Kevin kept our Twelve Step fellowship going all through COVID and I am so grateful for that and for how much I learn from him every times he shares in a meeting. We talk about growing up in Queens, losing his mother to cancer at 19, ketamine, cocaine, black tar heroin, China white and finally finding financial independence and freedom on his own. He is funny and well spoken and well versed in recovery and I am so happy to count him as a friend. Let me know what y'all think!
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