Episodes
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When something hurts, the instinct is obvious: aim for the opposite.
Feel worthless? Aim for worthy.
Can't trust anyone? Commit to trusting everyone.
It sounds like progress; like the right step forward.
In this episode I unpack why that instinct rarely works — why the healthy version of where you want to be is unlikely the polar opposite of where you are now, and what to aim for instead.
There's a simple ways to determine whether what you're aiming for will actually work, and most of the goals and paths people set for themselves accidentally fail it.
If you've been led astray by the promise of the 'opposite', listen now.
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You're probably pretty good at the soft stuff. The kindness, the compassion, the not being too hard on yourself. Good. Keep doing that.
But that's only half of good parenting. The other half has a fire to it, and most of us are accidentally skipping it.
This episode covers:
Why self-discipline is an act of love, not punishmentThe "it's not my fault-itis" problem and why dodging accountability is actually unkind to yourselfWhy shame is a terrible motivator and what the research says to use insteadWhy judging your feelings adds a second layer of distress on top of the firstWhy your environment is a self-parenting issueSpoiler: I saw myself in all five.
If you've ever wondered why being kind to yourself isn't quite working, listen to this.
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You pull over, hands shaking, absolutely raging. How dare they. What is wrong with that person. You're furious.
Except you're not, really. Underneath that rage is something far more vulnerable, and your body knows it before you do.
This episode is a simple, fast-acting tool for discharging anger from the body, the kind that flares up after a trauma trigger or a genuine threat. I also tell you about the night a driver tailgated me through the Adelaide Hills, and how I went from raging to sobbing in about 30 seconds flat.
This episode covers:
How to discharge angry energy using your body, in 30-second burstsWhy anger is so often a protective top layer, and what's usually hiding underneath itA real road rage story and the technique working in real timeWhy this exact emotional trajectory is what we see in EMDR processingWhen to use this tool, and when definitely not toIt's a coping strategy, not a cure (and get medical clearance before going full effort). If you've got anger that feels bigger than the moment, listen now.
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You judge yourself for being judgy. Then you judge yourself for judging your judgeme—ok, we're already exhausted.
In this episode Helen discusses how judgements are relevant to trauma work, and how to figure out what your judgy thoughts are actually trying to tell you.
Your judgment isn't the enemy. It's pointing to something. This week, follow it.🎙️ Listen on Spotify, Apple or Youtube
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“You might feel worse before you feel better”. It sounds like a disclaimer, a therapist butt-covering exercise if you will. I used to think so too.
But after many years of doing trauma and EMDR therapy, I have learned that you can absolutely feel worse before you feel better. It is legit, but it does deserve some attention, because feeling worse and getting worse are not the same thing.
That distinction changes everything about how you interpret what's happening when trauma therapy gets difficult.
This episode covers:
• The difference between feeling worse and actually getting worse
• The dust on the mirror effect: what it is, why it happens, and why it's actually a good sign
• Why the worst thing you can do when therapy gets hard is stop
• What the research actually says about clinical deterioration from EMDR
If you've ever had a rough week after a therapy session and wondered whether you should keep going, listen to this.🎙️ Listen on Spotify, Apple or Youtube
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You don't have to be a perfect parent. But there is one thing that makes an enormous difference to what your child thinks about themselves, and it's not whether you lose your temper.
It's what you do after.
Young children can't separate what happens around them from what it means about them. When a rupture goes unaddressed, a child's brain doesn't file it under "mum was stressed." It files it somewhere far more personal.
Repeated enough, that filing system can shape how they move through the world as adults.
This episode covers:
• Why unaddressed conflict becomes the story a child tells about themselves, not about you
• What a genuine repair actually sounds like (and what it doesn't)
• Why the gap between rupture and repair is where the damage actually lives
• Why it's not too late if you're only hearing this now
If you've been losing sleep over the moments you got it wrong, those moments aren't the whole story. What comes next is.🎙️ Listen on Spotify, Apple or Youtube
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You've had the insight. Someone laid out a completely airtight case for why the belief you hold about yourself is wrong. You saw it, you agreed, it made total sense. And then absolutely nothing changed.
This is not a you problem.
It's actually a clue, and it's telling you something specific about what kind of belief you're dealing with. Because not all beliefs work the same way, and if you don't know which one you're up against, you can spend years doing the right work in the wrong place.
Some beliefs live in the body and the nervous system. Some live in the intellect. They formed differently, they feel different, and they need completely different things to shift. Throwing logic at a trauma-encoded belief is like trying to argue someone out of a panic attack (completely useless, FYI).
This episode covers:
• Why you can have perfect insight and still feel exactly the same, and what that's actually telling you
• The difference between trauma encoded beliefs and learned worldview beliefs
• Why some people can do 50 sessions of therapy, understand everything, and still feel like their irrational beliefs are true
• How to tell which layer you're working with
• Why the gap between knowing and feeling isn't a flaw in your thinking, it's diagnostic information
If you've ever wondered why you keep arriving at the same realisation without anything actually shifting, listen now.
Get The Reality Audit Here — a free resource listing the most common distorted beliefs from dysfunctional environments, with the accurate version alongside each one. https://www.helenbillows.com/the-reality-audit
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Do you have a chronic case of the guilts? You're probably carrying more than your share.
Most people assume responsibility is simple: either it's your fault or it isn't. But that binary rarely gets you to the truth. It distorts what actually happened and creates guilt that was never yours to carry.
This episode covers:
Why feeling responsible isn't the same as being responsibleHow the Responsibility Pie works and how to use itWhy chronic guilt is often a sign you're carrying slices that were never yoursWhy accurate responsibility matters — for your relationships and your self-respectIf guilt is your default setting, listen now.
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You've heard it. You've probably said it. "I didn't mean it like that."
And maybe that's true. But it doesn't matter as much as you think it does.
This episode unpacks one of the most common damaging patterns in relationships — confusing intention, outcome and responsibility. Good intentions don't erase harm. They don't replace an apology. And when "I didn't mean it" becomes the default response to someone's hurt, it stops being a clarification and starts being a dismissal.
This episode builds on the previous one. If you haven't listened to that yet, start there.
This episode covers:
Why good intentions and real harm can both be true at the same timeHow "I didn't mean it" becomes a way of avoiding accountabilityWhat a genuine apology actually requires — and why most don't clear the barWhy the impact of your actions is your responsibility, regardless of your intentIf you've ever had your hurt dismissed because someone "didn't mean it" — or done the dismissing yourself — listen now.
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You've seen it everywhere. On social media, in the comments, maybe even from people who should probably know better. "Hurt people hurt people."
The intention behind it isn't wrong, but somewhere along the way it became a get-out-of-jail-free card. And that's where Helen has a problem with it.
Understanding someone's pain and excusing their behaviour are not the same thing — and conflating them causes real harm. This episode makes the case that accountability isn't the opposite of compassion. It's actually part of it.
This episode covers:
Why empathy and accountability aren't in competitionHow "hurt people hurt people" gets used to avoid consequencesWhat it actually looks like to hold both compassion and responsibility at the same timeWhy letting people off the hook isn't kindness — for them or for youIf you've ever felt guilty for being hurt by someone who was also hurting, listen now.
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You've heard of EMDR. Maybe your therapist mentioned it, maybe you're on a waitlist for it, maybe you keep seeing it online and wondering if it's actually legit or another wellness trend with good branding.
This episode is the honest, no-shortcuts explanation you've been looking for.
Helen Billows — registered psychologist, EMDR therapist, and EMDR consultant — breaks down what EMDR actually is, how it works neurologically, and what happens in the room during a session. She covers the Adaptive Information Processing model, why trauma memories get stuck in the first place, and what a processed memory actually feels like from the inside.
No finger-waggling mysticism. A clear, evidence-based explanation from someone who does this for a full-time job.
If you're considering EMDR, currently in it, or tired of not understanding what people mean when they talk about trauma processing — start here.
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Some people knit. Helen reads trauma research for funsies. And now you get the good bits, without spending your nights googling.
The Trauma Nerd is where evidence-based psychology meets the real experience of trauma, EMDR, and what actually happens inside the therapy room. Hosted by psychologist and EMDR consultant Helen Billows, this show covers complex concepts without losing the human underneath them.
Episodes run under 30 minutes. No shortcuts, no oversimplification, no wellness faff.
If that sounds like what you've been looking for, hit follow.
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