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In this episode of Rich Queer Aunties podcast, host Christabel invites guest Dan to share their journey from being raised as Jehovah's Witnesses and their spiritual journey afterwards.
Dan, a multi-dimensional being who is an organizer, spiritualist, sorcerer, and abstract visual artist. Dan also uses sound and music as tools for healing and celebration.
They discuss topics such as religious trauma, being ex-Jehovah's Witnesses, the experiences of gay individuals shunned by their families, African religious spirituality, spiritual journeys, self-development, and estrangement from family. Here are some key highlights from the episode:
00:03:31-00:06:40 - Upbringing as a Jehovah's Witness: Dan and Christabel discuss their strict upbringing as Jehovah's Witnesses, the lack of individual development, and the suppression of curiosity and individuality.
00:09:33-00:12:19 - Experiences of subconscious conditioning and rebellion within a religious community: Dan discusses engaging in rebellious behavior and seeking love in the wrong places, while also reflecting on the suppression they witnessed in Black women around them.
00:15:18-00:17:59 - Challenging Suppression and Making Independent Choices: Dan reflects on making choices that centered themselves and asserting their independence.
00:17:59-00:20:40 - Decision to Leave the Congregation: Dan discusses their decision to stop attending meetings at their congregation due to the suppression of women, influenced by their own mother's experience.
00:20:40-00:23:39 - Suppressed Identity and Self-Expression: Dan reflects on how their identity and voice were suppressed by their father, finding comfort in making their own choices and exploring their sexuality.
00:23:39-00:26:33 - Leaving Home and Coming Out: Dan reflects on leaving home as a symbol of freedom, and the challenges faced by queer individuals in religious communities.
00:29:36-00:32:33 - Choosing Freedom over Fear: Dan expresses gratitude for coming out as gay and standing up for themselves, despite negative reactions from their family and community.
00:32:33-00:35:34 - Ignoring Subtle Parts of Life and Choosing Intuition: Dan reflects on their experience with ignoring certain aspects of life, and the importance of listening to one's feelings and intuition.
00:35:34-00:44:39 - Exploring Grief and Depression: Dan discusses the concept of grief, its relationship to personal growth and healing, and the importance of embracing grief and allowing oneself to feel.
00:47:26-00:51:06 - Coping with family rejection and finding personal fulfillment: Dan discusses the impact of their parents' rejection, finding solace in creating their own life, and the importance of trusting intuition and taking care of oneself.
00:51:06-00:54:19 - Choosing Freedom over Fear: Dan reflects on their personal experience with grief, the transformative nature of the grieving process, and the importance of embracing discomfort for growth and evolution.
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Welcome back to the Rich Queer Aunties Podcast! In this episode, we’re diving into the topic of overcoming the fear of rejection and why it's crucial for self-actualization.
I remember when I made the decision to come out as gay. It was a tough one because I grew up as a Jehovah’s Witness, where the you’re only allowed to associate with people “in the truth” and shun “worldly people”. only associates with fellow believers.
What this means is that if you ever commit a disfellowshipping worthy sin - such as being gay - they can cut you off. And that idea is that by cutting you off, you will be eventually starved of love enough to come to your senses and “return to Jehovah.”
The fear of rejection was very real, but I knew I needed to be true to myself. So, I made the tough decision to come out.
In this episode, I’ll be sharing how I overcame that fear of rejection and the steps I took towards self-actualization.
I want you to know that it is possible to make decisions that bring you closer to your inner self, even if it feels like you're going to lose everything. So join us for this episode, and let's dive deep into this topic.
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Welcome to the latest episode of Rich Queer Aunties, where I'll be exploring the complex relationship between collectivism and individuality. Through personal anecdotes and cultural observations, I'll delve into how collectivism can both bind and liberate us. Join the conversation on this fascinating topic with me today!
At 04:37, I'll be sharing a powerful example from Ghana, where collectivism is so strong that reporting a family member's crime to the police can lead to ostracization. Conversely, at 08:00, I'll be discussing how America's individualistic culture saved my life.
Next, at 09:26, I'll be recounting my own experience of coming out on Facebook to both my family and congregation. Later, at 14:34, I'll be reflecting on how I navigate being openly queer and polyamorous while still maintaining a relationship with my deeply African and Jehovah's Witness mother.
Then, at 18:22, I'll reveal the harsh reality of being disfellowshipped by Jehovah's Witnesses and why I believe that I don't need my mother to fly a rainbow flag at pride. At 21:51, I'll emphasize the importance of respecting individuality, even when we don't share the same interests.
Throughout the episode, I'll be sharing insights on how representation matters and saves lives for African queers in the diaspora. However, at 27:03, I'll also highlight the potential pitfalls of collectivism and enmeshed communities. Finally, at 29:50, I'll be encouraging listeners to do the necessary work to navigate the anxiety and discomfort that comes with disappointing our loved ones in the pursuit of individual expression.
Don't miss this thought-provoking episode of Rich Queer Aunties, exploring the intersection of collectivism and individuality. Tune in now and join the conversation!
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Uncovering Authenticity: A Solo Episode on Love, Loss, and Learning to Heal
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Welcome back to the podcast, where we dive into all things authenticity, community building, and the luxurious lifestyle. But before we pivot to our new direction, I want to share a deeply personal story with you all.
For those who have been with me from the start, you know that I launched this podcast to share my thoughts with the world. Later, I teamed up with my ex-wife and partner of eight years to host the show. Now, we're back to where we started, with me (Christabel) hosting a solo podcast.
In this episode, I share the painful end of my eight-year relationship. It's a story I've been holding back, but I feel it's time to share. There are lessons to be learned from loving deeply, navigating a healing journey, and resorting to violent tendencies to fulfill one's needs.
I also delve into the complexities of polyamory and hypocrisy, and how falling in love amidst the ruins of a shattered relationship can happen. I know that at least one of you will resonate with my story, and I want you to know that you're not alone.
I'll admit, some parts of this episode are deeply shameful, and I'm feeling vulnerable. But it's my truth, my full story, and it's worth sharing, even the imperfect parts. So, join me as I tell this story in full once and for all.
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Is meme repost culture gaslighting you into thinking you’re doing the work? Doing the work irl and finding your people.
In this episode, I talk about:
Examining our beliefs
Doing the work to figure out what’s yours and what’s not.
Showing up fully in all our messiness to find our people instead of faking it till we make it
Reposting mental health memes alone does not the work make.
Listen, share, and let’s discuss.
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Capitalism and pay me for my work: My struggle with the nuances therein.
> How I broke my ankle
> Feeling less alone by listening to the stories of others
> How much I make as a nurse
> I started a Patreon https://www.patreon.com/Christabelmintahgalloway. Become a patron if you’ll like to support me monetarily.
> Why I priced/tiered my Patreon the way I did and why I need to keep my 9-5 job
> Can I make a living doing what I love
> Are these questions as a result of my indoctrination into capitalism
> I don’t want to be a starving artist; I did enough starving in my childhood to last a lifetime
> Why I would charge more for my time than a hospital pays me on the hour.
> I had my first ever speaking gig yesterday speaking at a local college.
> Ultimately, I’m choosing to face the work. The work is what I love and what I’ll focus on.
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I’ve had many relationships over the years all with trials but none has been as impactful as my current one with my partner and that with my mom over our lifetime. I believe that our relationships can be outstanding teachers if we are in the right space to be a student. Otherwise, it becomes about blame game. Focusing on the other person’s shortcomings or how they’re toxic or and anything else that is not how we can learn about ourselves from that relationship.
Disclaimer *this is not talking about truly abusive relationships*
It feels like taboo to talk about thing like your relationship is hard but you both remain intentional about remaining in it but that’s why I think we should. There were so many things that have happened throughout our relationship that many people (and us) would say we probably should have broken up in our first year.
I had a lot of anger from a life filled with painful moments. I had grown up a specific way where we yelled, screamed, hit people, thrown things etc. I was always ready to rumble if I felt hurt. Ginele also came into the relationship with her unique set of conditioning. So yeah, it was tumultuous. When I met Ginele, I had just had a pretty nasty divorce a few months prior after 4 years of a pretty abusive relationship. Of course I loved Ginele, but I had conditioning that I hadn’t worked on. My favorite thing to say was I am who I am and if you don’t like it, oh well. While secretly, I felt ashamed of the ways I acted out. But after a year of utter chaos, the love I had for her and the love she had for me motivated me for the first time to see if I can change the way I expressed my emotions. Five years later, here I am, grown and healed in so many ways. And six years into our relationship, the lessons keep coming.
While there are things I desperately wish I could change in our history, I can honestly say that she has been the truest reflection of myself that I’ve ever had. It’s so hard to see yourself. It’s much easier to see someone else and tell them what they need to work on. Shifting from that to just seeing yourself, sitting with that revelation, accepting it, and looking for ways to gain new skills to help you navigate life and your relationships with more ease is life-changing work. Our culture has taught us to throw in the towel early. If it’s hard in a certain manner, or for a prolonged period, or in a recurrent way, it’s not meant to be. And while I’m sure the sentiment that love should be easy resonates with and is true for some people, it’s never resonated with me. I don’t know of any uncomplicated relationships. I’ve never seen that, and so I don’t relate. What I know though and have witnessed in my life is the magic that comes from using love as a catalyst to learn, evolve, grow and repair relationships that matter to us.
By Instagram standards, I should have disavowed my mom so long ago. We have a very difficult history filled with abuse and it was the worst relationship in my life for a really long time. But when I started therapy and just talking about and processing everything that I went through in her hands, I learned compassion for her and by extension for self. She did the best with the knowledge she had. She saw certain treatments that were incredibly harmful to me as normal. So, when I learned the skills of telling her how what she did affected me, the skills of setting boundaries with her, and her (unspoken) determination to do the work, our relationship changed for the better. And it’s still evolving to this day. I’m so glad I stuck it out with her. And that’s kinda how I feel about Ginele and I. It’s been so hard. We have traumatic memories that I’d rather not have. We’ve married, there’s been infidelities, we’ve divorced, there are trust issues, there’s still a fairly regular conversation about if we’ll make it. If perhaps the hurt is too much to overcome.
So, we work, we go to therapy, we fight, we cry, we threaten to leave weekly because it feels just so hard sometimes. But above all, we love. At least we try to. Our love is divine. We both truly feel that way. Our therapists marvel at what we have. Our mothers marvel at what we have. That love is worth fighting for. Even if we have spent most of it unhooking from and unlearning our respective conditioning. Literally just last week, she called me out on my tendency to use tears and my pain as an emotionally manipulate weapon. At first, I wanted to defend myself and talk about how that’s so not true. But I examined myself and came to the open acceptance that I do that. It was such a relief when I finally admitted it and let go of the shame that came from it. And so now I can begin the work of learning new skills and techniques to counteract that conditioning. Anyhow, this is a much bigger conversation that I can’t wait to have going forward with Ginele as my guest.
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Back Like I never Left
Here’s a quick update on what I’ve been up do in the last three months. To include:
COVID- 19 emergency relief work in southern Texas
I turned 35 during first hurricane ever! In Mexico!!
Not being sure of who you want to be when you grow up
Dealing with self-doubt, a different brain and a world that demands productivity
Healing from religious indoctrination in order to find my voice (ps. still searching).
And so many more...30 minutes of just chatting it up.
I'll be back to recording more regularly now that I’m finally choosing to slow life down a little bit.
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Q&A : Coming out, skin care, organized religion, and more.
In my first Q&A, I tackle questions asked on IG about how I came out, what my skin care routine is, what I think of organized religion after being an active participant in one for two decades.
I loved all the questions that came through! I do think I missed a couple that we’re sent in my DMs because I couldn’t find it but there’ll be other opportunities to do this again in the future.
Resource: @ihartericka on IG for antiracist education for younger adults
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Aberrant Behavior - Black joy, white fragility, and everything in between
An episode where I just ramble about a few things weighing on my mind to include:
New white activists, I need an explanation on why you never saw racism until now. In fact, don’t answer that, it’s rhetorical. I believe you’ve always known, you just didn’t want to sacrifice that promotion by speaking up. While it’s great for the collective human race that you’re choosing to be co-conspirators, just know that there’s a mental and emotional toll that your sudden awakening is taking on Black people - well, I’ll just say me because Black is not a monolith.
White fragility and white tears and white guilt are boring and so tired and like get over it so you can get to work. Acknowledge your feelings because they’re worthwhile but don’t over identify with it and certainly don’t let it leave you paralyzed into inaction.
Black joy is revolutionary so fellow Black people, do all you can to cultivate it. Live your life fully, joyously, unapologetically. I talk about getting back to my self care practices that ensures that I keep that joy popping.
Until next time,
xoc.
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Not Racist? Not Enough! - How to become anti-racist.
This is from my perspective as an African who wasn’t always anti-racist. Being Black wasn’t enough for me, I had to become actively anti-racist. Many Black activist resist the idea of teaching anti-racism to white people and NBPOC because they are tired. I still have some energy so let’s go!
Not being racist is the bare minimum, you don’t get cookies for it. And this goes for all Africans or non American Black people, people of color and other immigrants.
Some ways you can become actively anti-racist:
First of all fight the egotistical need to be seen as not-racist. Not being racist is not enough, the goal is to be actively anti racistPick up a book, many books and educate yourself on the racist past and present of America. Education really is key, take the time to actually educate yourself. Begin to notice anti Blackness in movies and the media. Once you see it, you can’t unsee it. Then help your family and friends see it too.When Black people tell you something is racist, believe us. It’s not in our heads. It’s not made up. We don’t make everything about race. Teach your kids to see color. Them being color blind is part of the problem. Say the word Black when referring to Black people. It’s not a dirty word. We’re not inherently violent. -
Aberrant Behavior Episode 5 - Liberation from Subconscious Conditioning
In this episode, I talk about how most of our behaviors and what we consider our personalities are as a result of subconscious conditioning. As always, I draw from my experience.
When I wanted to change behavior patterns that were no longer serving me, I thought it was a matter of willpower but after that failed me time and time again, I decided to dig deeper.
Some of the things I talk about are:
How I got to a place where I could forgive my ex-wife (and regain closes friendship with her) for cheating on me twice before our first anniversary.Hint: it had nothing to do with her and everything to do with me focusing on transmuting my pain into powerful behavior changethe difference between the colloquial use of the term EGO and it's use in human psychology. And why it is important to get familiar with our Ego in order to stop- operating from a place of subconscious conditioningI mention the book The Four agreements and how learning about them is changing my lifeunlearning parental and societal conditioning. Why do we believe what we belive? Is it a matter of genetics or mere social conditioning?How can you be sure that YOU hate body hair?Our parents/earliest caregivers are not perfect, they're just people with their own traumas who happened to procreate. Should owe then take their word as gospel?Goal of all this workgetting free from bondage from our thoughts and feelingsleaving the prison of our mindsmoving through life with intentionbeing able to witness our thoughts and make the associations and own our shit without ascribing blame to other peopleunlearning conditioned beliefsgetting to know our truest selvesimproving our inner peace and wellbeingimproving our relationships all aroundin relationships, I notice when patterns are repeating themselves and I can better detach and recalibrateResources:
The Four Agreements: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Four_AgreementsThe difference between the colloquial use of ego and the psychological use: https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/wisdom/whats-the-best-way-to-define-ego/Dr. Nicole LePera. She has some amazing FREE resources on doing Ego work: https://www.instagram.com/the.holistic.psychologist/I wish you all a happy healing!Love, xoc.
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Aberrant Behavior Episode 4 - Spankings and Slavery
In this episode, I talk specifically to black parents, guardians and caregivers. I wanted to facilitate a conversation about the devastating effects of spankings within the black family.
I talk from my perspective as a kid who received many spankings growing up and how that affected me detrimentally. I was only able to identify said detrimental effects when I started doing the work of healing from my many traumas. This is my attempt to start a conversation and perhaps a change of heart in people who have adopted this slave era practice of beating black bodies as their own.
It was never ours to begin with. In fact, according to an article, “West African traditional belief held that children were reincarnated ancestors. West African societies held children in a much higher regard than slave societies in the Atlantic world, which placed emphasis on black bodies as property, not as human beings. West Africans believed that children came from the afterlife, that they were gods or reincarnated ancestors who led profoundly spiritual lives and held extraordinary mystical powers that could be harnessed through ritual practice for the good of the community. In fact, it was believed that coercion and hitting a child could scare off their soul. With Colonialism and slave trade, African-Americans adopted the practice of beating children from white slave masters” (Patton, 2017).
It is a practice that is extremely detrimental to the psychological wellbeing of our children, Obedience from our children shouldn’t be the biggest accomplishments of us raising them. There is much to be said about raising children who are independent in thought and actions who are not mere subservient clones of ours.
I leave you with my favorite poem from Kahlil Gibran on raising children:
“Your children are not your children.They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.They come through you but not from you,And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,For they have their own thoughts.You may house their bodies but not their souls,For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.”
Resources:
The case against spanking: https://www.apa.org/monitor/2012/04/spanking
Corporal punishment in black communities: Not an intrinsic cultural tradition but racial trauma: https://www.apa.org/pi/families/resources/newsletter/2017/04/racial-trauma
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Aberrant Behavior - Religion and Internalized Homophobia
In this episode, I delve into my long and complex relationship with religion and why I had to let it go if I was ever to love myself deeply. I have nothing against religion as a whole because I recognize it’s role in providing comfort and hope to many people as it did for me. Plus, faith and belief is a deeply personal thing that I don’t really think I have room to comment on another person’s faith walk. My mental health required that I let go of that journey and embark on a personal spiritual journey of self-discovery, self-love and self-acceptance. Psychotherapy and other modalities proved to be more effective in helping me eliminate the internalized homophobia I had.
Resources:
Find a therapist in your area: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us?tr=Hdr_Brand
Low-cost therapy for black women: https://therapyforblackgirls.com/
Low cost remote and in person therapy: https://openpathcollective.org/
Call to action:
If you prefer to read than to listen, the show notes are on the blog here: https://christabelmintahgalloway.com/religion-and-internalized-homophobia/
Forward this and other episodes to anyone who you think might benefit from it
Rate the episodes and write a review to get the message out because the podcast folks love to see that stuff.
DM me on IG to continue the conversation: https://www.instagram.com/christabelmintahgalloway/
Until next time, be well,
xoc.
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Aberrant Behavior - Episode 2: My Healing Journey; engaged at 15 and 2 jail stints by 25.
*Trigger warning: Domestic Violence, Self harm, suicidal ideation and other traumas*
In my most vulnerable share to date, I talk about how an abusive childhood and a tumultuous teen years and early adulthood led me to seek help. The pitfalls along the way and how I came to have a deep understanding of my innate goodness and worth.
I know this kind of desire to share isn’t the norm in a society like ours that values privacy and secrecy. In fact, I had to question myself about what my motives were. I looked up what it meant if you’re an over-sharer. But the call I have to share is too intense to keep ignoring. I haven’t always shared, in fact, people I’ve been intimate with never knew any of these facts about me.
I was deeply ashamed of myself for a really long time. I’m no longer in that space so as I honored the space I needed to heal, I’m honoring this space I’m in that calls me to share. I hope it makes you feel less alone in whatever you are contending with.
Some resources for mental health care:
For great gems on EGO work, Inner child trauma and others: https://www.instagram.com/the.holistic.psychologist/
Find a therapist in your area: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us?tr=Hdr_Brand
Low-cost therapy for black women: https://therapyforblackgirls.com/
Low cost remote and in person therapy: https://openpathcollective.org/
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Aberrant Behavior - Episode 1: My Why
In this very first episode, I talk about "My Why." What drives me? what inspires me? Why am I starting a podcast?
Resource: https://www.instagram.com/the.holistic.psychologist/
Logistics:
My goal is to drop an episode every week but I’m not tied to the capitalist obsession with productivity at all costs. I’m not a hustler, I move in alignment. So, yes, I will work to consistently publish new episodes but we’re going to honor the waxing and waning of us just like the moon does.
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